how nice would it be when we face God with righteousness together?? haiis...why are things happening just this way tt everyone is crying?? hmmmm...is it a change of heart?? i really dun wanna say "goodbye" ! i am just forcing myself to stop thinking and move on and away from this cross road..i dun want to let my feelings take control of my mind! urghh! am i going to close this chapter and settle down before the light shines back on me? i am so weak to take control of myself! just this feeling for you that never fades...I LOVE YOU. but your actions for her just made me hold back..i am just not the gal for you..no longer the one you would love blindly and care for wholeheartedly..not the gal who could melt your heart with my smiles and kisses..never again can i. time will just heal this wound in my heart...i want to be STRONG ! i will lead myself away quietly so that it will not hurt the both of you.. meiling ! you got to be STRONG ! though we still get to see each other face to face, distance is sensed and how could i still be strong and smile?? i have once loved you so blindly that i dun have the courage now to open up my eyes and face the reality of you not belonging to me but her alone.

DNA of Christ in me =D
kept myself busy from morning till now so that i won't think of any emotional filtering stuffs. woke up early to meet for CIP project and it took us like 2 full hours just to settle on one final background for the web-page design thingy. so time consuming arhh. =p den lesson lesson lesson...so happy that i got 7/10 for my BComm minutes writing test which i put in majority of the effort than my fren and surely it paid off with the marks i got! ~cool =D

went to the library for CIP project discussion again at 3 and finally our PPT is DONE ! ~happy happy happy. now we are left with prototype and proposal...hmmm, should i say good progress?? i love the teamwork in "wuge wuge"- our teams' name. funny?? try reading it in chinese..we have a total of 5 members..and so......................lalalalalala

i was totally STRETCHED during training! high-knee-lift ?? so long nv do le! initially it was effortlessly done in 15 sec..den coach wanted us to increase speed! so it was like OH MY !!! not again for another 2 sets ?!?! i sensed tsunami in my brain when all the blood is jus rushing ! the liquid traffic in the legs! LOL...~wobbly. and it is never called training without sweat. did the usual 4-man passes and once again, all did 100s of pumpings and cruntches... BOY oh BOY... after that, we had a never ending defense training ...fun and tiring!!

headed back home and had dinner with loagong....erm, hope there won't be a need for explanation why were we tgt ya?? and now...gtg and do my homework that weighs a ton which i can sell to garang-gunee for them to earn big bucks! whahahahaha...wat a sinfull thought.

JAMES 5:20...he who turns a sinner from the error of his way
will save a soul from death and cover a great multitude of sin.

victoria, cho meiling
ngee ann polytechnic [ACC]
insane
loves children!
together with Christ since 2002
loving God wholeheartedly
loving people fervently
BATTLE LEARNT and NEVER REPEAT
when you RECEIVE, GIVE.
when you LEARN, TEACH



I want a boy who will hold my hand in line at the mall & make all the other girls jealous.
I want somone who would grab me by my waist at random times.
Someone who is more goofy than romantic.
A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when i'm acting dumb.
i'm not the one you would want to mess around with - you might end up crying.
and not a "flowers girl" if you know...
He would silence me with his lips on mine when i'm throwing tantrums.
A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh.
He'd play with my hair all the time & suprise me with little things.
Somone who i could share my lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars.
more of a mummy boy than bad boy! would like him to be close to his mum then those who thinks are too-cool-for-school.
i got to 'get' him and he got to 'get' me.
But mostly, someonewho will be my best friend & would never break my heart.
He'd just always make me SMILE.
A boy, like no other & he's special.

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