victoria

2007-12-30T22:18:00.000+08:00

nothing beats than being in companion with my lovely cg mates!

yea baby! i'm so in love.

and SERVICE, awesome! LOL..seriously!

you'll never experience that in your own quiet time you know.

and the first worship is so!!!! OMG...

captivated...submerged...engaged...surrendered...

today met up with jon and jeryee first den take 99 to church.

on the bus, cam-whored. =))

our breakfast... ummmm.... ma.ma.mi.ya.

asked jeryee to feed me cos i didn't want to dirty my hands!

mwahahaha..clever me! =P

AHHHHHH~~~~~~HMMMMMM~~~~~~

my morning smile! =D

stupid jon took this gong gong de candid shot...

what could be up there that caught my attention?? hmmm....

i'm so blessed to have you with me! itzel itzel itzel =D

funny funny lijia!! what's with that toungue. hahs!

lixin, joyce, myself & jeryee

Actually looking into my notebook, i’m almost done with my homework le lei...
Perhaps just some more project work to touch on...hehee
I’m seriously not a good group mate and not a good leader.
BMGT undone, BCA undone, BLAW undone.
Hahahas...what can be worse than being horned down by all these trashing assignments?

Sermon is the best weapon to end off the year strong.
I have lots of mind reflection on the paper now..
Just filled with those ridiculous journeys along the life of 2007,
Mountains that have been climbed, crawled under, ran round and some being moved.
Journeys of tribulations, heartbreaks, trials, discipline, servant hood
Memories of joy, sorrow, unreasonableness, experiences, love
And not forgetting the vision, hope and goals set for 2008
Thou it will not be promised with a smooth journey,
Surely it will be a guided one that i can walk through boldly.

Before i end 2007, realising that’s its just a few more hours,
I wrote a note to myself.
Bearing in mind
what needs to be monitored,
what needs to be maintained,
what needs to be cultivated,
what needs to be tended,
what needs to give hid to,
what needs to be reflected,
what needs to meet the knot,
and just calls for a CHANGE.

2007-12-29T19:38:00.000+08:00

Awww... THANKS!

am so blessed knkowing that he's with me!

EVERYDAY i'm in love with you!

you said in your word that the weakest vine you will not break! =D

I LOVE YOU LORD!

alright, shall list down wat is done.
ONLY THE LMS PPT! goodness!
AND FINALLY BCA unit 5 (i spend hours figuring out the retard microsoft excel!!!) urghh!

i still have
FFA - MYoB
BLAW - project not started! LOL
BMGT - PBL not completed (must produce 15 page report)
BMGT - e-learning...pls TA06. i'm doing 77 street owner (Elim Chew) dun snatch her frm me!
BCA - PBL2 only got data validation. O.P.E.N. going to DIE liao. hahahaha
LMS - overview blog.

SI LIAO LA!!! finally after 5 hours! i finsh my BCA and LMS PPT slides. GOSH!
where should i start from for the remaining work undone?
and holidays are ending! OMg!
bu yao zhe yang can ren dui wo la. wo xiang yao wan! LOL
ngeeann is so so so so so so so so so "considerate" ar..
holidays are never nice. no break de lohhx.
see the amount of projects i have. see see see.
Can feel how tensed up i am now?
holidays are filled with projects!
pls la..i need to COMPLAIN liao. urghh!

just came here to relax. den gotta get back to work liao.
kkx...and hor, for reader's sake, add in a bit of sweetener to my blog k
i shall post pictures! =D

all taken many days back. HAHAHA...

I'M LATE QUEEN. always wrong timing de. =p

erm...when we went to eat the "1/2bird" restauant??

SILENT NIGHT, HOLY NIGHT

the little glow that brightens up the season! =D

its only 3/4 of us?? WOW

cheryl and jeryee

huixian and myself with the TREE! =D

the sweetest card this x'mas from jeryee! MUACKHS!!!

amd hor and hor...today so suay! was woken up by Jesse to give tuition! i almost forgot la. den hurriedly chiong over. (but i got shower before chionging.) and i still thought i could sleep till the sun shines onto my butt. hahas.. reached home chiong again. but this time is homework and my butt have not left the chair for hours le! and now, its time for dinner! i got mummy to buy food back cos papa cook de NOT NICE! ytd night i just had 3 mouth of liao lei! can die la. today must EAT ALOT! byebye.

feeling that i’ve got so much to whisper but... before i got aint any much word to say.. i just want to tell everyone who's loving me..

I LOVE ALL OF YOU! especially YOU who's reading this post! =D
noe why? Bcos u are interested in my life.
And if i am down on post, you’ll TAG to cheer me up.
And if i am high in heaven (happy), you’ll share the joy with me.
And obviously think that i’m crazy.

Hahas.. yes i am.I dun care how much you know till i know how much you care. =D

Have a blesses new year ahead!

2007-12-27T11:12:00.000+08:00

I DUN KNOW
smth wrong with the posting template on bloger.
kinda weird while typing here. hmmm
anw, christmas officially over and i reaceived LOTS of nice presents!
SO NICE! and those cards are SPECIAL!
the words are all jumping out!
jeryee's one was so LOVING..
jon's one was FULL OF LOVE
jiajun's one was FILLED WITH CHRIST'S LOVE
its a LOVEY DOVEY christmas! =D
and i got 2 notebooks, 2 necklace, 3 cards and 4hugs! =D

went swimming during the hols and yes, i'm tan now
think abit sunburn ba
went with the girls ytd and was FUN FUN FUN
laughters and screams made my morning smile! =D

today shall be home to chiong my work. sian!
what time can i sleep tonight?! >..<
HELP! SCREAM! SCRAM!
schools starting! work undone! worksheet not prepared! tuition not given!
OMG! hahahhahaha
exchanged yoke, shared burden, time surrendered! =D

2007-12-21T11:28:00.000+08:00

GOSH!!!!!
carziness took control of me! hahas
ytd wasn't as fun as i thought it would be or shd i put it the other way...the way i knew it would turn out? hmm anw, i'm fine with it la. still its my friend's bdae ma. so treat it as a test for me lohhx. and i realise that i was never alone ytd =D small little actions pinches my heart but your eyes speaks. you've lost what can be the most precious to you. and pls, never treat the people ard you as fools! you're just emphasising how immature your thinking is and how well can another think better than you. take a break from your own world and you'll realise what i mean. =)

[dog and bird], your hugs are just so important to me. you smelled my hair and i smelled your T...lol... that is just so warm and comfortable. looking at you, speechless. my heart didn't pound that fast, mind didn't run faster than my toungue but just a funny feeling. i dun know la..just so different.and i want more of it. LOL... [from: cow] hahaha...

ytd only turn in at ard 3am?! so woke up late today and didn't go for the IAC interview! terrible me! OMG...i feel so damn bad can. hais... but i'm still happy that i'm home! =D cos i can slag awhile before i meet up bluetooth and eve to do proj. heheee... den dunno why they want watch warlords ar...so OK lohhx.. todays spending cannot exceed 20. must control liao.no money spend liao. christmas present haven buy still...die die die. hahas..

2007-12-20T13:07:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU jeryee...hahahs.. this few days its been tough on you to help me settle some things ya? lol..anw, its been made clear and so, you loaded off the little burden i placed on you le ba. =..= and also for those company this few days. everytime take photo..den laugh laugh laugh.. getting to see how funny you can be.how gong i can get and stuffs. =D you make my days smile!

THANK YOU clarisa.. for shouting at me ytd! >.< hahahs..thou i dun think i like that feeling, that's why i walked away.but still thank you for the scolding. hahahs...its been made clear in my mind and so, dun worry k. trust me, trust him. and also thanks for the bread papa. hahas...its nice la. but that became my mum's dinner -.-"

alright, this are the two people i've been hanging out with this past two days? heheee... lots of travelling with them.so, abit pok liao cos of those transportation. hahas...

oh, remember, i went gym with steph on monday, den we did crunches and now my stomach pain! cannot laugh, cannot cough! urghh..den ytd, went to swim, now arms and legs are aching like crazy! urghh..can't even lift up my arms! alamak!

just came back from marketing with mama and she told me smth which i find my papa super sweet. hahas... share with you all k. my papa gave my mama a new ez-link card which she lost a few days back. he never utter a word when he gave her the card. sweet rite. just a silent gesture to my mum and letting her know that he's still there to for her. SWEET SWEET! =D

going BBQ later.hmmm. pris eldest cousin bdae! 21 years old liao lei.. hahahs...wanted to turn down the invitation de. but cos of pris final msg" you really not coming?" den i said k la...i'm going. (but i super scared will feel odddd!) hahas. den went to search for the present. stupid shit. went high and low, deciding from a pendant from taka to fancl products to wallet and finally a perfume! whoahh...long way shopping for it huh.lol. the prefume SUPER NICE!! from FCUK wor! branded de k...and it comes with a T-shirt from FCUK too! den the promoter say the shirt itself cost 39.90! so i think the present very worth it plus the perfume and the price very reasonable. hahha...mission accomplished. contented.

k and that aunty tan say she knocking off at 3! so..i will be meeting her first to get my leggings and she's going to get her top. so yea...that's the plan. shop first den go BBQ. hehee... later cannot eat too much.if not my 2 kg will come flying back to its owner. hurh hurh.... and still got another BBQ on 24. sure die. hahas.. alright..nth to blog le. mwacks! byessss....

everybody praise the lord

2007-12-18T03:22:00.001+08:00

everybody praise the Lord
shining in his light all over the world
everybody praise the lord
he gave his life to save us all

redemption songs
echo in the valleys
saints are singing
sing of revival
the pepole's praise
sounds like thunder
as we hail the risen king

Awesome in this place

2007-12-18T01:42:00.001+08:00

as i come into your presence
touch the gates of praise
into your sanctuary
till i standing face to face
i look upon your countenance
i see the fullness of your grace
i can only bow down and say

you are awesome in this place, mighty God
you are awesome in this place, abba father
you are worthy of all praise
to you our lives we raise
you are awesome in this place, mighty God

2007-12-18T00:45:00.000+08:00

SEPTEMBER BABY

Active and dynamic. Decisive and hast. but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

yea...it sounds so like me please! hahaha...i am emotional but not EMO!

hmmm, gym-ed today with stephanie and see! i always capture her doing funny posts. know what.. she super hyper and excited to work-out till run in the toilet while waiting for me to change into my shoes. she super high and impatient to wait la. hahas...den she went running round and round and i started taking pics of her.
and i finally dared to stand on the weighing machine and i lost 2 kg! YEA! i need to lose another 3 more?? hahaha...i'm so happy today!

meet up cheok and vivo-ed. suppose to pei her make specs but seems like vivo got no spectacle shop? just spoted a eyecare centre which we think would be damn ex so went back to JE but the shop closees at 9.30pm and we stepped into the shop at 9.28pm! stupid shit. and.... home i went. =D

2007-12-17T12:21:00.001+08:00

WHEN VENUS REPELS AWAY FROM MARS

would you ever wonder why would people get together and only then do they realise that they have nothing in common. be it in interest or taste, they never coincide each other. they may jump and sing with joys on those pleasant moments shared but those sorrows are burried within each souls. with the thought of being able to be comfortable with the person in speech and actions may not be the stand you can ever have in a RS bcos you'll never know how acceptant the person can be to your behaviour. you may seem to be the "giving" party more than the "receiving" one but how well can you measure that in the RS? how much i've given in may seem to you the very little i can put in. so where's the stand? your thoughts are hard to read, your minds are hard to interprete and your words are hard to catch. now, how to hold on? unexpected moments have happened...you can't change it. be relieved and thankful for memories and let time heal those wounds. PTL that none of us are hurt. =D

THIS OVERSIZED X'MAS

waiting for those unexpected presents?! hahaha....awaits w368 and w447... cheok and myself will be giving some extravagant gifts to all! =)) if possible, share around hors! super funny... this xmas is pretty oversized as there's so many things happening. SMILES & FROWNS... but surely we're all blessed with happy moments in 2007. just look back on how many friends i made this year, how close we're getting tgt, how thoughtful we were to each other, how funny when we 'suan' one another till super no face, those nicknames we've given each other, how many adventurous routes we took to grow to another level of maturity, how stupid we can be when we were "super blurr" and captured in all our memories and those learnings in school obviously... its all blessings. be thankful for any little things and you'll be HAPPY. =D ohh, be ever thankful for the past 365 days before you step into another 365 days of untrampled grounds.

I'M GOING TO CALL YOU

hey all, wait for my call! its christmas and its a season for me to be a giver and you just be a wonderful receiver alright. i'm going to ask you people out to chill! all you who are not attached, please be attached to me! mwahahah...if not i'll be lonely this xmas you know. so dun be so bad k. dun wait for me to jio you out. come come call me out ya. hahaha.. booked on 22dec (poly frens) 24 (clarisa and family) 25 (sec frens) ... and i need shopping! cg theme is white and gold... so...wat can i wear? i'll look like a bell in gold on christmas? nono... i want to look like a princess! =D

2007-12-09T15:43:00.000+08:00

home-d all day and its cool!
singapore is now air-conditioned! =D
alright, rubbish la hor...

amazing...
took the guitar out while i rested for an hour after finishing MACRO
sing sing sing till very shuang
den phone-ed jeryee awhile before getting back to work.
bible-ed and WOW....

1 john 3:18-20
Dear children, let's not merely say that we love each other; let us show the truth by our actions. Our actions will show that we belong to the truth, so we will be confident when we stand before God. Even if we feel guilty, God is greater than our feelings, and he knows everything.

He knows everything! and He really does! =O
it really speaks to me asking myself am i guilty for some tings i did in the past?
perhaps there are and sad to say, if you are guilty...you will never be confident!
got up with thoughts in mind of you but why must it be you?
its been so long that you're off my mind. gosh!
thoughts of you with her, thoughts of dishonesty, thoughts of unfaithfulness.
seriously tired and wanting to leave it all out but urghhhhh!
fine! that verse speaks for me. LEAVE IT DEAR, HE KNOWS IT ALL.

alright, gtg back to my books and mug hard le.
byessss..... swimming with CHEOK and JOEY? on wed... waits...

2007-12-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

FAT DOG & SKINNY COW
super happy lately.
thanks for all your compromising.
but i won't expect you to give in to me all the time
but u just noe that i'm whining...i'm throwing tantrum. =D
i'll make it up one day alright.
just misses you much more than ever before.
had a little romance here and there,
close touch, near insight.... I LOVE YOU

woke up with 'calls' in mind...
wat calls?! hahaha... i gotta give tuition!
and so this little idea woke me up.
i made jesse draw what she aspires to be in future and she drew
"TIBIT SHOP" ...
she wants to be a taxidriver to busdriver to housewife to shopowner SUPRE CUTE! =D
and den write 5 sentences about her aspiration.
interesting idea to teach english?!
and sure she learnt smth and absolutely enjoyed!

got home to prepare for service
changed about 5 tops and i took like an hour deciding on "wat to wear?!"
before deciding to just wear one piece dress..
faster and comfortable. i just don't like to wear two piece out =)
that's just me i guess.. jeans or dress? ... ans: dress

met cc first before going svc and we were late!
but we still got our usual expo seats in front! YEA
placed our offering on the altar is so awesome!
i just thought that we are placing all that we have on Jesus's feet! taken away!
oh...just so you know, it is LOVE that pushes all of us forward.
if your love is drawing you away from Him, u must have taken the de-tour...
frens, turn from the error of your way and he'll lead you once agn. trust Him, He will.

it just makes me feel so LOVED everytime i see Him.
He taught me what LOVE is all about.
He performs what LOVE could bring you.
He moulds the pillar of LOVE.
He sets the example that all may walk with arms of LOVE.
and if you don't LOVE, you're actually a murderer at heart.

2007-12-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

HO HO HO... HO HO HO
christmas is AROUND THE CORNER,
"turn to your side and its x'mas! " (lame shit)

kkx...today went to school for just 2 hours.
and den went BLAW and waste time..
reach home be AH SOH...
did house work, ntuc-ed and slack till now!
can imagine?! i wasted so much time! DIE
test next week....DIE LIAO

watched the 9pm show with family and GOSH..
i always make sound effect when watching shows..
den papa was like "jingjing ke yi ma"... LOL
but ITS SO CRUEL YOU NOE.
the girl so KE LIAN !!! kena tortured! urghh..
I HATE MAN! and i LOVE ONLY JONATHAN. my cupcake! =D
sweet sweet! romance romance! indulgence indulgence!

and i bet with mama that DU XIANG YI will win back his wife,
BUT mama WON... =( HAIMING DADDY got the wife...
sad sad... sad for xiangyi and tongtong, happy for siru and haiming

YESTERDAY
super funny
after the candle light "svc",
went back to the bunk with yinghua and jeryee
and that place is SUPER ULU if u go back urself and..
out of my "naughtiness" (english fail),
i ask yh to hide with me so jy cannot find us and she'll PANIC
so...WE SUCCEEDED.... jeryee PANIC till call my darling and dunno for wat..
SUPER FUNNY..
i can't stop laughing.
i saw her RUNNING back to the hall to find cc ..
and mind you, she never runs. =D
JAW DROP..
cc say her face damn white and going to CRY !!! weh weh...=") LOL
and she wanted to kill both of us.. ALL LAUGH PLS...

alright, that's her retribution of squeezing the turkey ham into my mouth!
and also not teling me that she's wearing fbt to camp...den still ask yq not to wear shorts.
SHIT HER RITE.. and i was damn clever compared to her. =P
i didn't count the number of busstops..
i told her to just look out for the 62 bus on those plates den alight can liao.
so troublesome to count one by one la. hahahaha.... CLEVER ME

and the camp cheer super (.............)
plus the action.... i just can't stop laughing and am super ANTI to all..
didn't participate at all. SAD.
and jeryee and jiajun left the group with me cos thay also cannot stand 'it' =D

candle light at PLMGS primary

ck zone ignite!

jeryee, yinghua, ruihua, meiling
les & jon (really cute!)

let's pass on the light from our hands and SHINE

shiningstars

2007-12-04T12:12:00.000+08:00

DON'T GET HURT BECAUSE OF YOUR TRUSTING...
alright, filled with nonsensical thoughts last night! this is crazy.
it may seem that things are going smoothly but...
i just got this weird feeling and i dunno how to put in words.
i know that keeping quiet is never the best antidote to problems but somehow,
i guess its the best painkiller for the time being.
if you're too trusting, you'll get hurt easily.

2007-11-30T19:11:00.000+08:00

LESSON LEARNT
and yes! i feel really BLESSED to have you in my life.
this would be a new chapter for both of us and YES,
we are growing together, ever stronger.
you sure is the guy who could lead and guide me along.
really sweet than romantic,
loves mummy,
soft with words but firm on decisions,
wishes to see the ugliest side of me =..="
YES, you're UNDERSTANDING
...and more to come your way!... =D

breakups are never easy and knowing i just had one this new year,
its never an easy decision and it really requires lots of strength to overcome.
surely memories are kept between the both of us,
joy and sorrows remembered and times cherished.
but when there's total cut-off, your heart breaks.
perhaps to mark an end would mean alot to me for that two years of rs,
but still, YES, i'm more than blessed now.
hopefully i could still be your friend,
meet up down on streets for shoping and chilling,
chat on phones thru midnights and still be as close as ever.
wonder you know that i'm referring to you

alright, after all the dedications,
shall resume my normal posts...
jeryee ask me to announce to the whole world bout my
SMELLY SMELLY MOMO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
know what is it?
MOMO has been sleeping with me since i was a BABY
IT IS REALLY SMELLY
and cheok ask me to bring it out on "excursion" to let jon smell it. LOL
alright alright, its a cloth !!!! and jeryee dunno!
she thought its a bolster! so stupid! =))

ok, super high now.
currently sleeping with jeryee
so i am closing my eyes to type
...alright, this is lame shit...
and i am going to watch my friday movie now...
byessss =D

2007-11-29T10:15:00.000+08:00

WAT SHIT IS THIS!!!

alamak! imagine myself banging the wall! urghh!

BCA hands on test GG liao!

LOL

cant even calculate 20% markup properly..

and den presentation also GG....

i was damn stupid speaking to myself on the steps

den bluetooth help me...but kena 'scolding'

just now BANG WALL...

now feel likeJUMPING OFF THE HIGHEST BUILDING liao

THIS IS COOL SHIT!

OMG OMG OMG

and now sitting at atrium with eunice and qianhui..

hahaha (we're the YES, NO, HUH)

and abit sian!! gotta wait for another hour to lecture.
urghh...den bluetooth ask me go sign up FACE BOOK

...WE"LL SEE...

anw, i'm gg to delete my friendster liao..
its been decades since i touch that account pls...

SO NO USE! =D

yes, here's the ginger bread man i drew using QH account on face book..

see see see

my creativeness...

sucks rite! LOL...

but ehh..HARD TO CONTROL HORX! =P

2007-11-27T19:12:00.000+08:00

OK... here's an upside down blog..
mwahahaha.... weird rite?!
watever, evelyn and i put it this way to be 'special'

today is GO PINK day?!

nearer pls

evelyn and myself =D

stephanie and evelyn
a.k.a laogong and laopo

WAT THE *** SHE'S DOING?!i like this pic ALOT

i'm abandoned ....
.

SOBBB...

today so PLAIN! nth to do in school de can.. i'm clueless during BLAW tutorial and MACRO lecture. feel so LOST IN THE JUNGLE.. lol.. and wasted my time waiting for the dunno wat talk on next years IS thingy.. WASTE TIME! envy those who are so clever to skip that STUPID TALK! urghh..and i slept on bus sweetly while on my way home and thanks to shenghong who called me for some reason and i didn't miss my stop! hehehehe

2007-11-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

PAY ATTENTION!
i'm shagged
went GYM early in the morning and late queen (stephanie) onli came at 0950
how great ya? suppose to meet at 0900 one lohhx..
but anw, i dun mind la..cos i not angry at all =D
so i just headed to gym alone first.
was stretched to MAX at gym!
seriously i have never felt so tired for a very very long time!
i ran 'ladder' all the way till i hit 11..for an hour! OMG!
i'm running

was half an hour late for lecture but who cares? lol...
i already know the topic on disposal .... so nvm la =o
FFA as usual is alot of slides but content is LITTLE..
so didn't miss out alot la..
and i just had 2 slices of my favourite -
BANANAWALNUT bread for the whoole day?!
i was so turned off and eunice ask me why i look so distraught?! hahahas....new word learnt!
hmmm, perhaps i was just energy drained after gym i guess...

and BMGT discussion=0
i didn't put in much effort in paying attention to the analysis...
SYSTEM SHUT DOWN
headed home straight for bed and i rested for 3 full hours! gosh!
finished todays tutorial and am bored to touch my BLAW...
so forget it...
tml would be a LONG DAY for me in school... (9 to 6)...
SHOUT OUT IN DISTRESS! urghh!

2007-11-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

WOW... i'm getting diabetics soon!
just sweet sweet sweet! =D
guess i was damn damn tired last night,
slept from NIGHT to NOON!!!
was on the line the moment i got home (11plus) all the way to 1plus...
den, again on the line from 6.45 to 7.40 ....
in between, I WAS SLEEPING!
so i slept for 11hours?!
but poor cupcake, only had about an hour of sleep =p

alright, slagged home whole day...

did a LITTLE housework den showered to have dinner...

i missed you so badly but i can do nothing.. haiss.. LOL

shhhh...SECRET!

and yes, ytd sermon just made me know why i'm so in love with HIM...

[ God sent his son all the way from heaven to earth to show the way,

and from the earth to the cross, our debts he paid.
and from the cross to the grave, from the grave to the sky...]

lift His name on HIGH!

and in exodus 27:33

"Marah" = bitterness

"Elim" = clear water, nice and sweet

and from Marah to Elim is just 8km away, a one day journey...

=> it just tells me that all it takes would be just one decision to move away from bitterness and God will feed you with all that you need.

=> maybe it could be just one blind move that you're away from Elim...

[[ i actually wrote this down in my notebook and OOOOOOO.....

this part of the msg POP UP so strong and i'm taken away.. Jesus didn't drink the bitter wine bcos he doesn't wants to feel bitter when he died on the cross for us. magnificent!! ]]

friends, when you feel that you're along the lake of Marah where everything just goes wrong, clueless, headless, immune to emotions...PRESS ON! as you walk further down, and mind you, its just 8km away from ELIM... a place of serenity for you to rest and stay peaceful in the arms of your father in heaven. PRESS ON... you're reaching! =D

what's that expression on jeryee's face?!

i dunno!!!

but sure she'll scold me for posting such an ugly pic of hers...

LOL!!!

lets show our ??? face....

and also,
not forgetting this one person,
whom i've 'lost' contact with recently.
maybe awkward-ness are back to us.

wanted your HUG so much but, .......

nevertheless, you're still important to me.
not just important you know.
i do hope you know who you are.
i miss you.

2007-11-20T21:47:00.001+08:00

today is my NO MOOD day..
damn sian during FFA .... HALF DEAD
on my way home.. DEAD!

so i slept for like two full hours!
woke up and have dinner,
changed bed sheet,
did the laundry,
tidied my room!
achievement for CHO aunty =)

now i come online to post some pics for my dear BLUETOOTH ...
and den, shun bian blog... HAHAHA
if not i dunno when will i get here to post my next entry.
kkx..some FUNNY and FACTUAL pics..
oh yes, and was caught up with 4 con on msn which got me hooked up there for hours!

ok..shall end off with two pretty babes saying NIGHTS! =))

2007-11-18T16:32:00.000+08:00

as the saying goes, a picture speaks a thousand words...
so here you go!!!

my classmates:
they're all busy listening to tutorial and i'm taking pics?! >.<"

the KING of TA06's LEG...
compared with mine!!! enormous!!!
guess he's 1.96m...
i'm shrinking...

forgotten which day was it that jon pass me my BELATED birthday present..
and he wrote a note, .."EAT MODERATELY"..
know the meaning?! urghh!! >.< hahs..and i remember the both of us kena scolded by the security... we went to a prohibited area somewhere in the condo and unlock the door to get up the rooftop! my oh my, the security came up and OH OH OH...
we're chased back home. =p

guess which chocolate i chose to eat first??? [tag my board]
if you know me, you'll have the perfect guess. hehees...
[ if you've read my post, MUST TAG]
the number of readers just jump and i dunno who has been reading my posts ehh.. LOL

2007-11-12T19:21:00.000+08:00

COMPRESSED

alright, shall give this post a quick one..
hasn't been free to touch my lappy so all the post are time lagged.
heck care alright....and oh, i've yet to receive all those sentosa pics
kinda unable to post them all out....

today abit off my natural soul..
woke up very relunctantly.
sometimes you just came back to my mind and
i would tell myself off and its kinda irritating to be unable to control the feelings.

didn't laugh and joke much today and feeling headless..
the feeling is just no good.
ignored FFA lecture,
mind drifting away during BMGT tutorial
souless on my way back.
what had happened??
i dunno what should i do to ease my mind.

2007-11-12T18:53:00.000+08:00

HELLO !!!
do you guys know?? i'm falling in love with BLUETOOTH!
not the device but my new sweetheart la. LOL
though she's a girl but we not les...
we can act like one, be like one, close like one but we'll never be one.
she's just forever cute and can play till we drop dead with laughters.
THAT'S US !!! =))

sure its been LONG since i blog so kinda lost with words to type.
hmmm, where to start lehx??

ok..shall haunt back nights before where i stayed up just to complete my LMS blog and it took super duper long for me to have all those post up at one go. so i was up till 2plus and my oh my, did the template thingy with MUCH hassle.. =..=" so yes, next day woke up early for class and i was SHAG.. lol

and still there's two other nights that i won't forget! shall not go into details but really want to thank laogong for "pei-ing" me on the phone till late night. and you're so damn multi task la... do revision, listen songs, online and still talking on the phone with me. mwarkhs! iloveyou and imissyou.

and yes! now this para is dedicated to my dear bluetooth onli! SWEET !!!

ok..wondering if my dear realised??? we are together most of the time ALONE and we went havoc. yea baby? lol... i went over to your place after school TWICE and went out ONCE... "honeymoon" together lehh.. hahas... craps! the 'christmas trees', those identical eyebrows we have and couple starbucks.. just so many nice memories.

and yes! to SENTOSA on deepavali!!

TERRIBLE...its like black parade la.. so many indians celebrating not in little india but guess they alighted at the wrong stop at harbour front. so shitty... many incidents when i gave a stare at them and they can still smile back at me! urghh! pissed...can't you sense that i dun like you to look at me?! LOL yes, went for a swim and its TIRING!!! i need your support, cupcake! =)) and oh man!!! i got bitten by smth in the water i guess..it just hurts when i showered and reached home with red patches at somewhere sensored (my INNER TIGH!) . haahs...but i was sick to take a pic of it... scroll down to meet your needs ( sounds so wrong! =p)

dinner-ed at harbour front subway-ed... kissed my lalaland at 0130 sharp !!!
finally i had a NICE SLEEP!

i love my cupcake! you're just so loving! your eyes just melts me down, your cuddle warms me and your care touches me!
i will remember this very first hug you've given me in the waters!
you held my hands to swim, you lifted me up the waters, you lead me there.

2007-11-10T00:04:00.000+08:00

what a nice place to hang out...

i love it lots !!

bluetooth and infrared !!! =))

caramel choco & green tea latte...

both are just as nice !!!

Ooops... indirect kissing !!!

we're merely acting hardworking with papers on the table >.<

signing off !!!

2007-11-02T19:24:00.001+08:00

OH MY TIAN!!
today is RED day you noe??
everywhere i go i see ppl wearing RED and yes,
ppl in RED tops, bottoms, bags, caps, slippers and dustbin is also RED
OH ... couple wear with my aiai today too !!!

some stupid pics i asked bluetooth to take and its still with her. =)
nothing much really happen in school but just we skipped a few minutes of lecture.
seriously, BMGT is total waste of time to attend. it shucks!
lecture was terrible where we can't even see those words on slides.
think he abit colour blind or no sense of colour matching la...
and yes, he's presentation skills is like !@#$% TERRIBLE
i dun understand a single thing!! made me so irritated. so left lecture early! =p

goodness! the new love song i'm crazy over ( deeply in love-hillsongs youth alive) its so nice!!!

and hahaha....this morning went to collect my ez-link which i lose it ytd moring and got some toungue lashing from mum. wadever la. and here again i wanna share this joy! i'm blessed with $100 from my tuition kids' mum! oh goodness! i haven start giving A&B and here's my blessing. i'm so happy! cos i thought i won't have spare cash to spend after two consecutive week of heavy shopping! yes ! i'm blessed !

each day i would fall into your arms of love. each day i would wonder wat can i do to see you smile. each day, you'll make me look up into the sky and guess which cloud are you sitting on. and every night i'll ask myself, have i grieved you. i really need you Lord.

2007-10-28T11:53:00.000+08:00

alright..how long have i not blogged? LONG LONG TIME AGO.

hmmm....after two weeks of thinking and mind refreshed...i can now tell myself to STOP. its really all nonsense in life man. i'm tortured both emotionally and spiritually. ENOUGH. pls get the heck out with life man. stop going ard hurting ppl and do watever you wish. He's not blind! and I LOVE HIM MORE THAN YOU LOVE ME. those songs of deliverance will lead me out..i'm certain. okk..and it takes time.

shall reminisce pleasant and sweet moments with my sweetie pies and cupcakes. lol...(wat a name i gave them). shit! my memory could only bring me back to thursday! urghh..cos its with my cell group! yippy! w368 is just so kawaii!!! i love them lots! yess...all the turdcakess are in this cell. =p and this bangala..damn LMAO. SO CUTE!!! and yes..joey, yuenleng and cheryl made fishball soup as refreshment. delicious.... =D

friday...sadd as not wat i've expected. met up with you to take back my belongings and you missed out some. =..= " sua la..nvm. and we didn't even utter a word. guess its all ending. yes. ENDING for good. den slacked at home since then and when i woke up, me eye swell! its uncomfortable! and i kept whining into my mum's ear. guess she oso cannot take it lohx. and she touched me and described me as HOT. hahs...so its the beginning of my sickness. *clar..i'm finally HOT! not HOTDOG! kkx...den rested liao.

saturday didn't give tuition, didn't go ministry, didn't attend service, didn't want to go out cos scared my eye will get infection. but too badd...LAST minute got shopping spirit. checked if clars' free and off we went to peninsula and i got myself two pairs of jeans and she got two tops. she so badd...forgot to remind her to buy tops for her dear too cos jo dun like to shop. hahas. you'll partner her to meet her lacks. =) and i'm badd enough to not tell u tt i saw the roling stones tee. [in the end u still saw it so..no deal] =p

today, might be going with mum to ToaPaYoh cos her aunts husband passed away liao. hmm, i'm so bad.sound as if i not related cos the string soo long. i oso dunno how he looks like la. lol. watever..MUST RESPECT. so yes..meeting mum ard 4. shun bian can go there shop shop. hehee...no opportunity cost incurred. =p LAME

is my smile back on me??

its a long detour and i hope it found its way back to its true owner.

master piece by me ytd. ITS DAMN NICEY!!!

*clar! wat's that finger? OMG! i'm not free for you. =p

i'm auntie CHO. =)) cam-whored.

2007-10-28T11:29:00.000+08:00

received an email from serene and its inspiring..

the beauty of maths!
so all who doesn't, you've gotta hurry fall in love with it.
cos, its super amazing!

1 x 8 + 1 = 9
12 x 8 + 2 = 98
123 x 8 + 3 = 987
1234 x 8 + 4 = 9876
12345 x 8 + 5 = 98765
123456 x 8 + 6 = 987654
1234567 x 8 + 7 = 9876543
12345678 x 8 + 8 = 98765432
123456789 x 8 + 9 = 987654321

1 x 9 + 2 = 11
12 x 9 + 3 = 111
123 x 9 + 4 = 1111
1234 x 9 + 5 = 11111
12345 x 9 + 6 = 111111
123456 x 9 + 7 = 1111111
1234567 x 9 + 8 = 11111111
12345678 x 9 + 9 = 111111111
123456789 x 9 +10= 1111111111

9 x 9 + 7 = 88
98 x 9 + 6 = 888
987 x 9 + 5 = 8888
9876 x 9 + 4 = 88888
98765 x 9 + 3 = 888888
987654 x 9 + 2 = 8888888
9876543 x 9 + 1 = 88888888
98765432 x 9 + 0 = 888888888

Brilliant, isn't it?
And look at this symmetry:

1 x 1 = 1
11 x 11 = 121
111 x 111 = 12321
1111 x 1111 = 1234321
11111 x 11111 = 123454321
111111 x 111111 = 12345654321
1111111 x 1111111 = 1234567654321
11111111 x 11111111 = 123456787654321
111111111 x 111111111=123456789 87654321

Now, take a look at this...
101%
From a strictly mathematical viewpoint:
What Equals 100%?
What does it mean to give MORE than 100%?
Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?
We have all been in situations where someone wants you to GIVE OVER 100%.
How about ACHIEVING 101%?What equals 100% in life?
Here's a little mathematical formula that might help answer these questions:

If: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

If: H-A-R-D-W-O- R- K
8+1+18+4+23+ 15+18+11 = 98%

And: K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E
11+14+15+23+ 12+5+4+7+ 5 = 96%

But:A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+ 21+4+5 = 100%

THEN, look how far the love of God will take you:

L-O-V-E-O-F-G-O-D
12+15+22+5+15+ 6+7+15+4 = 101%

Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that:
While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, It's the Love of God that will put you over the top!

2007-10-15T18:53:00.000+08:00

MIXED UP

really dunno how am i feeling now.
sometimes would wonder why must i make myself flare up when i can choose to remain silent. but hey dear, i've bottled things up for far too long. i can't take it anymore. perhaps this shall mark an end for the both of us. let's silence this this way ba?? surely when i start typing..my heart seems to tear bit by bit. feeling really down and all but who cares? tears just flow and there's noone beside. its always a should or should not thing that i thought. having to forgive when you lie.ignoring all the unhappiness with you.to call to let you know i'm there for you.

sometimes reality seems way too high to just fall but the thought came to my mind. i can take the steps and walk down slowly. being very cautious and thinking through whether i'm certain to leave things behind the door. yes. i walked all the way down. my heart really broke and its now broken. never look back. i'll leave you alone to think what you've ought to do. i said you OUGHT TO. because when it comes to sin. its always the "I" in the middle. think bout those people around that's affected and you'll noe why is it a ought and not a choice to consider.

sometimes i thought you're the angel sent in disguise for me as you really can tolerate all my nonsense, my beatings, my whining, my demanding request. now, someone has covered the me in you. i'm not a glutton to punishment. so i can now make up my mind to choose the right thing. i've seen enough, heard enough, felt enough. i dun want to be punished with this torturous feeling i'm feeling now. the pain grew and grew. its unbearable to my heart.

my tummy is feeling damn off now. been running through and fro from toilet for the past few days and now...thought i recovered but i'm wrong. i just feel like drinking now. why do i like to drink down those sorrows and have hangover the next day. reality doesn't go off. when i walk away and turn, will i see your face or your back?

you are my hiding place: you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. psalm 32:7

hosanna

2007-10-15T18:46:00.001+08:00

Verse 1
I see the king of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing

Chorus
Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest

Verse 2
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Stirring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees

Bridge
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

2007-10-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

if keeping quiet is all i needed to do. I WILL

2007-10-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

today is super duper uber SIAN!!!

all i did was COM, EAT (nuggets onli), COM, SLEEP, TUITION, EAT ( dinner w/o rice), TV, COM, SLEEP. see how sian can i be man. good la, at least i didnt' spend any money today. ooopx...just realised that i'm really really charging at a very very low rate for my tuition kids man. SIAN! nvm, i will be wiser next year. hehee....

yes, sis and i very wuliao..we drank up vitagen and put seeds in with those "water baby" to see if it grows. and yes! shoots are surging out! kkx...when it grows out of the bottle den i take pics for you peeps k. hahas. now i take like helping vitagen do advertisement. haha!

[ i am not afraid of storms for i'm learning how to sail my ship.]

times have changed. or perhaps i'm the one whom have changed. no longer the quiet and innocent me. i want to learn to control my temper. its abit haywired whenever i flare up and start being unreasonable and throw tantrums. terrible me. only those whom i really can vent my anger on will get a taste of it bahhx.

really wanna apologise for not treating you like a "human" and create a fuss every now and then. and without ryhme or reason, i'll just vomit out all my frustrations and hit you. really really sorry. i just dunno why am i so demanding. do i treat you as a stead or just a fren? i really dunno. complexed. perplexed. complicated feeling. lukewarm. uncertainty. contradicting.

i just dunno what i want from you. perhaps nothing.

i can't swallow down my unhappiness. i can't

hope you understand.

a twig just snap under your foot and in no seconds, you realise you've just broken his heart

whenever i'm noisy, he's silent

when i'm crazy, he's decent

when i'm unreasonable, he's logical

when i fear, he trust

when i'm weak, he's strong

when i cry, he's there

when i'm silent, he talks

when i'm down, he lifts

when i'm lonely, he's my company

when i'm thirsty, he waters

when i'm empty, he fills

when i'm hungry, he feeds

i'm more than blessed! i love you!

2007-10-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI MEI !!!

ANOTHER BLESSED 365 DAYS!!!

some crazy pics of her. so dumb....especially that mouth so big.like clown!! you noe the circus de ma?? tt one la, where ppl will throw balls into it de.liao le ma? LOL...i dun care if she sees this post. hahahaha. sang b'dae song and the God bless one for her. she's HAPPY! =))

alright, took train home just now and i overslept till boonlay. not too bad la. den, thought since i'm at jp, i go buy some things for my notice board lohx...den called pris. talked awhile den realise y everyone seems to be walking towards the station...so asked her wat time liao. den she say 10!!! den i sian diao...all shops closed liao lohhx... if i knew it earlier, i would have taken back to lakeside and walk home. so nvm, balek to interchange. den saw this trans-island bus..the green one... so rushed towards it and boarded thinking that it was 187! den called mum to wait for me to cut cake. den after about three four stops later, realise the surrounding doesn't look familiar. I'M SCARED! immediately call suan for help. talked on phone and cried. I'M REALLY SCARED LA. all those lonely roads...empty and dark ones. den suan keep telling me its either cemetry or army base. make me feel even worse..really very uulu.. i keep hoping that i'll see buildings and more cars. hmm... den hang liao call clar. ask her pei me all the way to interchange cos she's staying ard that area ma. when i alight the bus, the driver asked me : " you really so scared arh? " ( in chinese) LOL, he must have seen me cried so bitterly when on the line with suan lohhx. den pris called...so relieved. she accompanied me all the way till i reach home... SCARED!! luckily i didn't take wrong side at the train station neither to marina bay nor pasir ris.

i'm dumb for the day

2007-10-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

kena woken up by tina's call early in the morning 9am! urghh..soon, was disturbed by pris msg. each time i reply, within seconds...i'll have to reply again. so, i couldn't get back to sleep. hais, should have left my phone to silent mode last night.

alright, was made dumb early in the morning. i went to boil a small cup of water using the stove and i forgotten cleanly about it until my nature call calls me to the toilet den i realise the stove is on. the metal cup obviously was ruined by soot and i'm to blame for being absent-minded. terrible me. and after that incident, i went to boil a kettle of water. this time i filled it full so in case i forgot, the water won't dry up so fast. clever right?? den had this rice tea for my breakfast cum lunch.

headed to orchard today and wanted to start my shopping spree for the week but ended up with no bags. i bought NOTHING. perhaps i'm having my monday blues. very sian out of a sudden. didn't really joke around today. feeling tired and restless.

probably its because of my mense that came only in the afternoon. nothing to be proud actually but it was delayed for two weeks liao. so its a good sign that it finally visits.lol. on the sad side, i can't go swimming on thurs. SIAN! oooops, suppose to monitor the time to blog off and sleep but i overlooked. its now 12 plus le. i should say goodbye. sweet dreams...here i come!

2007-10-08T11:51:00.000+08:00

Holidays are speeding up. NO TIME TO PLAY!!!
alright, shall look back on what have i done to slim down for the past 2 days.
saturday: 200 skipping and hula-hoops.
sunday: roler-blading at ecp.

my legs are calling out for massage now! real torturious for my lovely legs can. i jump till me legs turned wobbly and adding on, i wore heels for service. and blade till me hips and legs turn sour! OMG... and ohh! my bigg butt! it hurts when i fall onto the ground! lucky i got big butt... so the impact is lighten with the help of those extra fats. =..= and i just measured the circumference of my butt..its now 35 inch! OH what on earth man! an add on of 2 inches. really ..... ... ..... how i wish that the increase was for my top. =p sian diao....

went ECP ytd and suppose to meet 11 at boonlay, end up..12 den got onto train. and so, 1 plus they had lunch and was ready to set off only at 2 when a welcoming downpour from the sky invited us for shopping initially.. insisted by a handful to blade, we all waited at eunos slacking. finally after those entertaining craps by peeps, the sky was clear. headed to ECP only at 3??? blade for two hours and its fun fun fun. cos at every hump, I WILL FALL!!! and thanks to jiahui, she guided me through the journey. and also thanks to her that i fell flat onto the floor. LOL. weird day cos we didn't take any pics. hmmmm..weird. hahas, choohong wanted to take my ugly post with messy hair but too bad...too bad...too bad. and oooops, i trip suan with an unglam fall after a hump. surely there's some cuts but will heal de la. =) and ooops, i almost made jieying fall too! hehehehehe..bad me.

washed up and all, den headed to marina for dinner cum celebration for kam's bdae. had pizza hut and i'm damn full! forgo one slice and made use of the crust, removed the fillings and top it up with cheese and cheese and extra cheese. its paid anyway, so i was carried off shaking the small bottle. wasn't successful in making it look like a bdae dare as there's only a sprinkle of chilli covered wih tons of cheese. and oh! this kam so damn .......... he was too impatient to have those cheese on his pizza, he simply open the bottle and POUR. i mean POUR and not SPRINKLE. den he didn't close properly, the cap gave way when jieying was the next user. a hill of cheese was formed on the table. motherly jing and dirty kam started their task. kam ate the cheese on the table and jing gathered the cheese and threw.

reached home ard 11:30 and was so tired that i fell asleep on the sofa. walked back to my room half dead already ....and dozed off almost immediately.

2007-10-06T23:23:00.000+08:00

VISION WEEKEND

let us bring excellence into the kingdom and let City Harvest be the bride that God sees from heaven. what has the church been doing for the community is amazing alright. i want to be so involve to bring smiles back to everyone whom i don't know. I WANT TO SPREAD THE LOVE OF CHRIST!

whoohoo...shuang sia. church is moving back to jurong west le. but horx...actually not so high bout it la. no matter where church is held, i'll still be there. so no diff.. and service would be changed to every SUNDAY MORNING! goodness me.. gotta wake up early le la. sian! hais..... and poor jon, he got to change 3 buses before reaching church! wonderful arh. i take 154 to school already got the nausea feeling. wonder how you gonna overcome.lol.

headed to bugis for dinner and den homed.. whole day meal was only one chicken bao before svc and yong tau fu for dinner. sure cut down on food intake to slim down liao! yesh!

2007-10-05T21:06:00.000+08:00

SONG: Rain Down - planet shakers
*pour out again
touch me again*

whoo~ today last day of work ehh!!! i'm so happy!!! now i don't need to force myself out of bed early in the morning le! can finally let mr sunshine wake me up le!!! can slack for one full week!!! i'm happy!!! means school is starting!!! HAPPY!!!

and ohh, before i left, i gathered the 'seeds' [its always the kingdoms mind in life i can say.] i got the p6's number and invited them for service. it will never be a fulfilling life without knowing who God is. and also, theres these 3 boys (graduated from the childcare alr) who didn't know that today was my last day, but i've seen them around for weeks le la. den not till today, they came forward to get my number! i am *shy! so i said unless the principal allows. end up, even the principal can't help me to siam so bo bian hahaha...but i gave them willingly also la. [ehh, dun say i buay ba horx] God just does things on time. He is never late. just like if these 3 boys didn't ask me today, they won't have the chance anymore i guess. and den one of them is aloysius brother. so kinda safe??? =p *wat am i thinking sia?! =..=

alright, thinkings can control your actions. i experienced it just now. really wanted to throw everything out le but what are the thoughts inside? good or evil? i never wanted to pull anyone down. i never! but cheryl told me... when you talk about betraying. "is it better to betray your friends or God?" decisions always come with great responsibilities. are you questionable by God? its always tough to lie infront of a person. and i know, i really can't.

edited~

Does your name fit you?

M: Make people laugh (can i make you laugh?? pls tag my board)
E: Have beautiful eyes ( mine so small..nice meh??)
I: Love to laugh (a big AMEN!)
L: One of the most romantic people ( shi meh?? pris, wat do you think? )
I: Love to laugh ('m shouting AMEN! and i'm laughing at myself now! =..=)
N: Good bf/gf ( i dunno if i am)
G: Dont like people to tell you what to do (pls tell me who likes. lol)

V: Not judgmental (so so bah...but its good that i'm mentioned not bias here)
I: Love to laugh (hey...what have you got to say now?)
C: Really fall in love with (yupx...because its always hard to let go of your love ones)
T: Great Kisser ( no la. can't kiss long.lol. no breath la)
O: EXTREMELY easy to fall in love with (yes with things and humans?? =p)
R: Can kick your ass ( do i enjoy doing that?)
I: Love to laugh ( SEE, ITS AGAIN!!!)
A: Fun to be around with ( smile! )

KEY
A: Fun to be around with
B: Loves to make people laugh
C: Really fall in love with
D: Is a great dancer
E: Have beautiful eyes
F: People get wild and crazy to adore you
G: Dont like people to tell you whatto do
H: Easy to fall in love with
I: Love to laugh
J: Easy to have fun with
K: Really silly
L: One of the most romantic people
M: Make people laugh
N: Good bf/gf
O: EXTREMELY easy to fall in love with
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite
R: Can kick your ass
S: Lives life for fun
T: Great Kisser
U: Gets blamed for everything
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Drop dead gorgeous
Y: Loved by everybody
Z: Lives life for fun

i'm seriously bored while waiting for princess clar to reach home and send me those pics. so here am i again. got this from eunice and she got it from friendster bulletin. amazing sia, i dun even go see lohhx. =p

PIANGS..i did a stupid thing and i got a stupid feeling now.
i went to do my surname! and shall show you ppl these.

C: Really fall in love with
H: Easy to fall in love with
O: EXTREMELY easy to fall in love with

do you get the feeling now. its STUPID!!!
do i fall in love so easily?? i seriously dunno.
and hey, after laughing, pls try for yourself. LOL

2007-10-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

nice hairdo?

1 peter 1:6
So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while.

had a wonderful time during cell group..so damn funny. for so so so long i have been chosen to play during games time la and the only thing i needed to do was to act as a maid! LOL, i simply took a handkerchieve and wipe the floor...den *exam caterpillar* guessed it right liao. so YES, perhaps my acting skills is GOOD or my interpretation of a maid is GOOD or my teammates are GOOD at reading my actions. watever =))

prepaered barley drink before the meeting start den had a shock of my life when i saw the pot of 'barley drink' became 'pot of beans'! i totally see no seeds submerged under the water la. OMG!! immediate reaction was to POUR WATER! lucky it didn't turn plain water and still managed to serve all i guess =) nice drink OK. hahahahaha *grins.

oh yes, during cell group, team up with leslie and joey. we make the day man.. ALL LAUGHED AT THE START OF OUR "PREACHING" . urghh...this leslie la, "why must we give to the god?" i peng lohhx. like WAT THE...its not written in the paper somemore sia. ROFLMAO! i laughed till i teared can. i really kept laughing! LOL. finally calmed down and had my point and gave a testimony on wat i experienced when i go through arise and build. superb!

1. your giving represents the love and worship that you would want to surrender to the Lord.

2. greater we sow ----> greater we reap. [sow in tears and reap in joy]

3. time+money+energy+thoughts = invest.
his blessings will come unknowingly and you'll glorify Him with your testimony.

2007-10-03T18:49:00.000+08:00

i really hate him i really do.
can he just do smth for the family?
can he?
he's just so useless!!
don't support the family
don't cook
don't do housework
don't love
don't care
don't give money to his own daughters
don't use the brains to think
just acting like a president at home
throw instructions here and there
only know how to use rough to educate us
wishes to kill us when we throw tantrums
I HATE HIM TO THE CORE!!

CAN A GOOD MAN EVER APPEAR IN MY LIFE??
it really gives me a phobia to trust a guy with my life
when i have him as my father.

I LOVE MY MUMMY!!!
the one who supports the family
the one who feeds us all
the one who calls when the clock strikes 12
the one who never complain bout our result
the one who listens
the one who allows us to watch any channels we like
the one who smiles to us
the one who never cries when she's leading a hard life
the one who was said to be blind when she got married
the one who loved us more than she love herself
the one who pamper us above her
the one who keeps the best for us
the one who we only had her signature on our report book
SHE'S MY MIGHTY MUMMY!!!

THIS IS WHY PEOPLE CELEBRATE MOTHER'S DAY
all mothers on earth are MIGHTY
they sometimes can be naggy and chants non-stop
but they are honourable

2007-10-03T18:17:00.000+08:00

i miss your voice
i miss your presence
i miss you
i miss my hair
i miss my voice
i miss those times in school
i miss running
i miss swimming
i miss shopping
i miss hanging out with THEM.

i really dunno wat to blog. SIAN!
i spent half an hour on this post and look at the result.
*WOE* WHAT ON EARTH!

2007-09-29T11:36:00.000+08:00

one night, a man had a dream. he dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. along the sand, he noticed there were two sets of footprints, one belonged to him and the other to the Lord.
when the last scene off his life flashed back before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand, and noticed that many times along his life, there was only one set of footprint. he also notice that it happened at the lowest and saddest times in life.
he went to question the lord saying, " God oh God, didn't you promise me that you will never leave me nor forsake me? didn't you say that you will always be watching me? why is it that there's only a set of footprint on the sand in my weakest times? " the Lord replied, " son, i have never left you. i was all along carrying you on my back. "

2007-09-27T19:12:00.000+08:00

celebrated my sweet 18th with so so so many ppl...hahas. the process was quite memorable on the actual day. had some to be sad.some to be happy.some to do self-reflection. just lots of thinking and appreciation to be done. but still, thank God for making that day so special. quite sad that i couldn't celebrate with my family on time but still, YES i got my cake. total of 4 cakes this year! sure to grow FAT..hmmmm

alright, i'm a weird breed who can't wait for school to start!! i seriously can't wait. i want to go to school! urghh.lol. and there's so many things to be done in my mind! alamak! exploding liao le la! i've got to continue working till 5oct, continue giving intensive tuition to both of my precious, re-decorate the notice board in my room to prepare for next sem.... actually after writing out horx, it doesn't seem alot ehh.lol.

okay, word search : flabbergasted-astonished; greatly stunned

can you imagine?! it appeared in p6 worksheet! omg! i studied for 11 years and still i have yet to come across this word la. really, time has changed. time seemed to crawl at snail's pace at work. i am really tired. yawned all the way from start and still gotta give tuition after work. TIRED! finally could get home to catch a nap before dinner. =D

ohh, really ought to apologise as ytd was not in the mood and made a couple of you angry with me. without ryhme or reason, i flared up while texting =.= really crude with my words but sorry. i didn't mean it. SORRY

hey librains, Appreciate the smaller things in life -- even clouds in the sky deserve your notice. i thank God for introducing so many frens into my life and fate was the access to the birth of our realtionship. but hey, i've apologised. time and time again i tried to mend the wound. yes, i might be at fault in the start but i TRIED to mend. i tried. look at it from my point of view at start. was i doing good or evil? i know i've angered someone but wait, do you enjoy what you're doing now? having two person to care.two person to worry? alright, mayb i will get a reply of..'its my prob'. so fine, i dun care wat you want. but i'm sure that every move you make right now, you may please one but not the other. you are sure to suffer because you are lost with your sense and feelings for others.and sad to say, you have lost feelings for yourself to appreciate.

i don't see the reason why you still got to pretend when its human's nature to shoo away from who they detest. oh please, so fake. no point faking a false front infront of others. i loved, but i guess you've closed the door straight into my face. we've known each other since primary days but so why? sometimes i really wonder, what's so important if we're frens? its already out of my shoes to even bother. so why? perhaps its a treasure, a diamond ring that i could not afford to loose? i want to find out the reason why are you treating me this way? cold shoulders? disrespect? transparent?

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has! been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

2007-09-23T10:53:00.000+08:00

whoo..took last train back ytd.hahs...oso dunno wat's up for todays plan??? hmm, alright.just thought ytd's svc was GREAT! the worship is ^whoolala^ you know you know... when you close your eyes and visualize, you will see those things unseen. it is just an empty realm for the spirit to light up your path. its just so AMAZING! think in tt realm when you're alone, when noones' walking beside you, he's faithful and just to protect and guide. but its a matter of choice whether to stay there and look or walk together with him. its a matter of trust when you are somehow blind-folded and knowing no direction but just to be led. I LOVE YOU LORD! =D

ohh, though i don't think that my results are good but i'll keep pressing on. so long as i know wat i want, where i want to go, do the right things at the right time. EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT!! He will protect the secondaries as long as His your primary.

celebrated my birthday ytd with church frens plus sec frens. first was in church when all sang b'dae song and God bless de tt one, so touched la. and den was the present. $60 topshop credit card. so blessed! which means i can buy the jeans there?! den headed to marina with cg for dinner and so happen saw my sec frens at the foodcourt! kinda 'huai yi' liao le. nvm den, had a nice dinner..cos the food is nice. i like! think next time visit the foodcourt and eat the same dish agn. hahahaha... den clar pop up frm my back holding a b'dae cake! and its my favourite FRUIT CAKE! =D so cg sang another b'dae song again. but sad to say, jeryee'cheryl'yiqin'joyce'kenny' were not there to share the cake. DEN my sec frens walked over again and sang!!! so i had a total of 3 exploded b'dae song frm my frens! OMG!!! and i teared at the last one when i have 22 ppl singing b'dae song together?? hurhur...HAPPY! and thanks clar for the mp3!!! puofei le =D [i'm sure clar dunno wat's the meaning of puofei.lol]

2007-09-21T20:28:00.000+08:00

hallo hallo..back here agn =)) as usual, i went to work and gave tuiton...so nth much to blog too. but i have a video for all which i took at the centre today. view below. =p

hmmm, i have smth to share today!
A parrot lover bought a talking parrot for a reasonable price at a pet shop. soon, the man dicovered that the parrot just won't talk.
every morning for two weeks, he'd stand infront of the cage and try to coax the parrot to talk. "can you talk, parrot, can you talk?" but the man got no response from the parrot.
the man was loosing his patience and one day, he shouted at the bird, "can you talk, you stupid bird. can you talk?"
the parrot gott angry and retorted, "yes, i can talk. but can you fly? you stupid man? can you?"

yes, physically we can;t fly like parrots but spiritually we can soar higher than parrots to height of excellence.
rmb: " it is not just the aptitude of brains but the attitude towards our circumstances that finally determines the altitude of our achievements."

though i've been serving in children's church for a year, and now, having a 'career' with kids of young age, i still dunno how to handle certain situation. everyone is made differently by our creator and so it has to be customized to suit every individual. it is not just knowledge but the ability to turn to counter shoot the problem.

today, i went over to replace anuty betty with the P1 kids and goodness me! their academic standard is freaking %&#.. terrible! den i sat down with this boy-yeeming whom is a little slow with the mind operation.lol. den he starting dun want to sit with me la. but i shd admit..e moment i sat down on the table, i had a stern look.( in case anyone where to climb over my head.hahaha ) den i scolded him and all...those treatening don't seem to work on him after half an hour! so i went to speak to him nicely. yea baby..the lion has turned soft this time! hahas, so managed to guide him thru his 3 miserable pages of assessment. accopmplishment k!! its really a joy to teach. and when you see results from the effort you put in, its motivating! hahas.

ohh, and the joke over the table this afternoon is hilarious! i just can't stop laughing when faith (my collegue) shared how phobe and tiffany had a water fight ytd. alright, shall fill u in... ytd, after tea break, the water pipe in the boys toilet burst! and the kids went "FLOODING FLOODING!! " den phobe rushed to the toilet and kanchiongly scoop water out. alright i dunno how to start the joke here when aunty shirley said bubble fun with those springing waters and so on. and when phobe prayed for the pipes to stop bursting and asked for help, a second difference, the bangala from the construction site appeared infront of her. den we went like hahahahaha your mister prince is here to save you. riding a horse, redy for rescue! den wat erm, were you elegant when you kanchiong? den did he see ur ugly side? and aiya, hd have wore bikini. hurhurhur...

kkx, home today without dad. kinda peaceful cos noone will be watching TV. means silence! soft! hahas...actually is no diff la. my sis needs the TV on so she will think tt someone is with her in the living room. hahas

2007-09-18T09:47:00.000+08:00

High cholesterol!!! High high high!!!
Can you imagine?? I had 2 half-boiled eggs for morning breakfast?! Hahas, alright, should be thankful to mum for preparing breakfast for me. Hehees... =D

Finally I can blog after so long ehh. Hmm, I’ve been working for a week at the day care centre paying at 5 per hour. Low pays but very very relax. All I need to do is to assign assessment and mark them. period. Morning would be the P2’s and afternoon would be P3’s. You can hear lots of nonsense from them and it’s FUN to ‘shoot’ them back! LOL...and lunch is provided there! Mwahhaha...they even provide tea time! =p definitely I’ll grow fatter with good food there.

Alright, suppose to work morning shift but today gotta do the self-select timetable.so change shift. Working at 12...which is 2 more hours!! I’m meeting my kids soon! And I got myself a ‘boyfriend’ there.lol. He is HANDSOME!! But sad to say...p5 nia =( ohh, I’m good at torturing the P3’s...it’s fun to see them sulk and you’d pity them, den u turn soft..hahaha dunno wat am I talking here. But still, I will turn from a kitten to a lion so they will be scared of me.

Ok...i want to change phone!! and when will i have the time lehh? i want to break off the bondage with M1!!! M1 not good not good not good!!! cheat money onli.hahas

2007-09-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

alright..great, i'm late for work today agn! mwahahaha...the late queen just can't kick off her habit. and start the routine shouting at the kids to do homework and assessment. den soon i realise i end up with a pile of books to mark. wat the...is really alot la. so mark all the way till lunch time [._."] served lunch and next group P3 came back from school. so served lunch agn. hmmm, and i'm getting stricter each day to deal with the group of chatterbox in my group. Zzzzz! shuo bu xiang shen qi dou bu xing. WO SHOU GOU LE!! lol..actually still can ren one la =p wat i talking sia. i oso dunno.

bus-ed down for cgm. *when will He be placed first in my heart? when will i get back my first love for you? when will i get back the reason to be here? when when when? alright, went entertainment to have dinner at pizza hut. hmmmm, the dunno wat cheesy pizza is NOT NICE. really not nice. i love cheese really alot la but just..it doesn't taste good. only the fillings are alright but the crust is terrible!! but anyhow, i still finished my food. =p

took my own sweet time home and while walking along the covered passage way, i dunno why i look up on the shelter. den i saw a lizard. goodness man!! my goosebumps went up, my shoulders went up and so did my heart and i almost vomit it out. i'm serious! actually i'm not scared de la. but dunno why i will react that way to that particular lizard up there. alright, den just tell myself: aiya, jus a lizard. scared for wat. just walk la. so..i continued my speed of a snail and walk directly under the lizard. smth to be funny..lucky i not so dumb to run through the empty passage way. i just WALK k. hahas..a little brave bah. =p den i thought of this:

sometimes you knew it yourself that there's danger up ahead. just like the lizard standing up there. you won't know if its going to drop on ur head. but still, u will be brave to walk under it. why? b'cos u sense that the lizard up there will not commit suicide by falling on you. u noe that u are bigger than that small little lizard. so you'd dare to walk pass. so is the route to life. its definitely liken to a car racing journey. at every curb you face, u noe tt there's a danger to speed and turn but still u will finish the race fast..u want to win the prize. u just have tt confidence in you to finish the race safely and strong b'cos u will be protected by ur father in heaven. He has gone ahead of you so that every path you take is ordained by Him. He will never plan anything too hard for you to overcome. you just got to believe that you can.

2007-09-12T17:24:00.000+08:00

BACK HOME LE...and teaching was FUN!!!
was late for work and so bad sia...first day wrong impression. hmmmm..
den met all those old old teachers and sure there are some whom i dun noe la.
but still alright, can get along la.
and there's this aunty christine..she is DAMN CUTE!!! everything she does, she can link to food. just when we 'teachers' were preparing some materials for art and craft, we cut a small circle piece of coloured paper and den fold it to a triangle so on and so forth but den, aunty christine say..she can use it to make bao... char siew bao somemore. ~faint~ den when drink green bean soup, she say its bird nest. piangs! hahaha

2007-09-11T16:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY...CAN U PLS LOOK AT MY SMILE NOW???
woke up knowing that i have an important role to play and tt moved me on man.
alright, wat actually happened doesn't matter.
but knowing the inner one in you makes you look bigger and stronger than your mountain.
He is ur armour, ur shield, ur crook..He shall rule your tongue and speak thru you.
i really went high high up scolding that helpless devil who tries to turn the situation bitter. i can't take it man!! go die la..stop roaming ard and disturb people. you have nth better to do issit?! urghh!!! yes to all..like wat the song sings, you've got to be strong even if it all goes wrong. Someone's watching over you. treat all your mountains as a battle from God and don't disappoint Him.

received a call from lakeside telling me to stand-in for aunty roseline as she has knee problem. i'm really thankful!! He gave me a source of income. yea baby yea~~~ and i dun have to forgo cgm; church; tuiton..NOTHING. hahahahahaha. alright...i guess i wasn't clear enough to let you ppl noe where i work ya. i went back to my day care centre as a relief teacher! the ever best job i can appreciate alright. though the pay not very attractive, but i still can impart knowledge and instill some moral values into other ppl's life. this is GREAT. greater then receiving cash k. heheee...

went over to tutor gladys and YES..another fun time with her. again, i taught her english and also how to write compo. amazingly, she remembered that i gave her spelling last week. so, she reminded me. =p to her abit 'zi tao ku zhi'...lol...

at 7plus, went to tutor jesse...cool, she finally knows the chapter on TIME. great!! able to solve problem sums...and its a FINALLY. and first time ever, she ask if she could do comprehension. OMG....i will never initiate to do compre for life man. it is just urghh!!! when we have to read so so so many lines and write long answers. urghh!!! guess dreading to do compre is for normal students but jesse is just 'abnormal'. haha...as if like i very normal like tt. pris always say i dumb..my taste very weird. but aiya, who cares.

was on the line with pris while walking home and i teach her maths and dunno wat else la. and it is great to teach!! being able to let your knowledge flow out of you and feeding others. OMG...i'm going high high high and crazy!!! i feel really GREAT GREAT GREAT !!!

hmmm, and ya, last but not least must tell you girls to be strong k. it is a path ordained by God and you will definitely walk thru this dark journey and grow stronger and stronger. tougher and unshakable. you will never be alone to fight the battle. just quiet down and listen to His voice which will lead you thru. YOU CAN DO IT BABES. JIAYOU!!! loves!!! =))

2007-09-10T17:56:00.000+08:00

Found myself today

Oh i found myself and ran away

Something pulled me back

The voice of reason i forgot i had

All i know is just you're not here to say

What you always used to say

But its written in the sky tonight

So i won't give up, no i won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And i will be strong even if it all goes wrong

When i'm standing in the dark i'll still believe

Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light

And its shining on my destiny

Shining all the time and i won't be afraid

To follow everywhere it's taking me

All i know is yesterday is gone

And right now i belong

Took this moment to my dreams

So i won't give up, no i won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And i will be strong even if it all goes wrong
When i'm standing in the dark i'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say

And it doesn't matter how long it takes

Believe in yourself and you'll fly high

And it only matters how true you are

Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So i won't give up, no i won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And i will be strong even if it all goes wrong
When i'm standing in the dark i'll still believe

That i won't give up, no i won't break down

Sooner than it seems life turns around

And i will be strong even when it all goes wrong

When i'm standing in the dark i'll still believe

That someone's watching over, someone's watching over,

Someone's watching over me, someone's watching over me

2007-09-10T07:04:00.000+08:00

it really breaks my heart to say some things but still i've said. its time to step up and move on le. if you've made up your mind..i can do nth but to say, don't give up your love for God no matter wat. curve your lips and your tears will dry up. i'm not turning..but just far away. you don't owe any explanation to anyone but only your heart. leaving is the best option i guess.

whoahh..didn't sleep the whole night. was on the phone with someone...den chatted and chatted till morning, later meeting up to have breakfast downstairs. den think will come home sleep ba..

its not that i'm afraid but rather to believe in myself that i can do everything on my own with Him. hoping for things that are impossible is more tiring. i dun want to put out my hands in the empty sky, believeing and hoping for things. that's only staying put; not doing anything. when you run, carefree, you will forget all the pains..i am not chosing to let you go but being forced to. if not i don't noe how to continue with life.

i'm not blogging things to announce to the world that i have a problem with you. i am just writing the thoughts that's in my mind now.. thoughts of uncertainty. one year plus going to 2 yeas in one month and 8 days...our anniversary?? what will it be like?? those promises you've made for me.where are they?? have the clouds covered my sunshine?? i don't noe...

2007-09-09T14:57:00.000+08:00

oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit....
alright, so long never blog le. but i will just come back occasionally as i've lost the reason to blog.

thursday...
after a wonderful cgm, went to town alone to "shop" and got a present from wallet shop for clarisa.... den meet pris to catch evan almighty. its NICE! i mean it is nicer than ratatuoiie. and in it there's this conversation when evan was talking to God and asking to bring the family closer. and so why did God assigned him to build and ARK?? when you pray for peace, you will not be given peace but an opportunity to promote peace. when you pray for kindness, God will give you an opportunity to have an act of kindness. when you pray for patience, God will give you an opportunity to be kind to others. *don't expect God to feed you when you are not working for it yourself. Joyce Meyer once said to CEASE THE MOMENT. =D

friday...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARISA!!!
make a joyful shout as this is the day that the Lord has made for YOU!!!
was home doing the chores and finally i can rest den remembered i didn't borrow any books for ministry. so went to jp for dinner and to the library. hahas..this time, clever teacher meiling got 3 books. one each week so i save the time to travel agn. =p and on my way home, met crystal on bus. so it was like when we're about to alight den i talked to her. so didn't really chat but i "hit" her. =p hahaha... went out at ard 2315pm hoping to catch the last train to pasirris but end up no feeling to take an hour journey on train so cabbed down to pris house. den left to pasirris park de fisherman village to find clar(birthday girl). she smelt like walking alcohol..met her friends and sat there chatted chatted...drink and talk... Zzzzz! felt very very tired le so cabbed back and reached home at 0530am... slept at 06oo...

saturday...
set alarm at 7 but ignored and woke up at 0945 by jesse's dad. OMG~~ postphoned tuition and skipped ministry. i feel damn damn guilty!! i admit i'm in the wrong!! OMG~~ wonder how did the class went and who's been taking over me. haix...REGRET!! alirght.. left house at 3 and meet jeryee at je platform to expo.. and i am really really very tired!!! when reach tanah, jeryee and i still have the mind to go back jurong. serious!! i am really SHAGGED.. den pris also wanted to go back. but clar and jojo never say anything. so suan liao. *when the body is unwilling, the soul is hungry. =D
service was funny!! #embrace your circumstances and you will find joy in its purpose. looking at what you lack does not lift you up but loking at what you actually have and maximise them is wat you can do to be happy. this guest who has no limbs (no hands no legs) can still put on a smile as he knows that God has not place him in a situation of total darkness. our God has promised us that we will be able to find Him..seek' ask' knock.. and promises of peace, comfort, rest, grace, soundmind. I LOVE HIM !!!
after svc went to changi for BK dinner then went back pris hse to get my keys.. end up went prawning with her, clar, joey and jeryee. slept at 3am....

sunday...
staying home. is sian one lohhx. but who cares la.. things are going through my mind now. why (are we still friends) tired le. physically..emotionally.. hope i'm handling things the way He wants it to be. yes, we shall stop contacting. i'm serious. i can't take it anymore. though i don really noe the truth behind but please dun bother to explain b'cos i will treat it as a defensive move from you. i just don't trust you. i dunno why. its a complicated thing..its smth more tt meets the eye. haix... am i holding too tightly to you or too loose ?? on one hand, i give in to you easily, and on the other, i dun want you to leave me. what is this man?! i can't stop this myself. i need YOU!!

2007-09-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

just why is it this case when i know so many things in my mind lehh. and i can share with noone?? cos i'm finding myself very childish. yes..CHILDISH.. remembered what joyce meyer said..."ignore those who are against you. there sure bound to be 10% of the people you meet in life that dislikes you. so why bother when you have the other 90% with you." really wonder why things would turn out this way. who wants to be hated? who likes the feeling of being transparent when you actually care? who enjoys the taste of being treated the innocent one when others are sowing discord into the RS between the both of you?

yes, have tried mending this friendship but it just don't go the way you want. it just doesn't. and when you are on track, another turns the steering wheel. how well we used to be..and it is used to be is all gone. lets hope that its gone for the good. it is a change of heart that changes this whole friendship. once you lock yourself up, noone can heal this wound. so i guess, you have shut yourself from me.

just where have i failed? just caring for you, my friend. sometimes, being noesy isn't good ya? but those things just ran to my attention and i happen to know. so how? shd i help you or not? hmmmm, forget it. just clear this thing and move on with life. there sure to be better treasures waiting.

2007-09-05T00:52:00.001+08:00

wanted to go for a swim today but ended up rotting at home with the tv. den tution-ed with jesse and she made me a teacher's day card! OMG =D den went to edit a little of my profile...Zzzz!

was on msn with that pig aka shit...and she started all the egg bombing.

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][ undivided heart ... ][ it just takes time.. says:
ya dan
][ undivided heart ... ][ it just takes time.. says:
niao dan
][ undivided heart ... ][ it just takes time.. says:
yu dan

[ ahPei ` ooops ] says:
aiyah
[ ahPei ` ooops ] says:
u KON GLONGDAN

anyone knows what that?? so i was dumb to ask "she me lai de?" den she said this

[ ahPei ` ooops ] says:
dinosaur is kong long
[ ahPei ` ooops ] says:
dan is egg
[ ahPei ` ooops ] says:
lol
[ ahPei ` ooops ] says:
kong long dan uh kong long dan
[ ahPei ` ooops ] says:
now u are my kong long dan

][ undivided heart ... ][ it just takes time.. says:
CUTE x987654321234567899876543212380987654123456789!

[ ahPei ` ooops ] says:
i dont want to be any of your dan

so we ended off this way...[._."] nth to blog so i put this stupid con. up...Zzzzz...can anyone tell me what else can i do with the lappy other than blogging and chatting?! haiis

2007-09-03T00:02:00.000+08:00

hahas....what happen today?! i left my handphone at home and soooo...whole day out "contact-less" LOL met the 368 peeps at grand cathay for Ratatouille...to me, it wasn't funny. i almost dozed off alright..i kept yawning! LOL not sure what really happened to me...can't seem to laugh when i watch comedy movies?? i mean the simpsons i oso can't laugh...Ratatouille oso can't make me laugh...aiya..dunno la

after that...headed to NUH to visit kenny....poor thing...he vomitted 10 times liao ehh. how i wish i was the one. so i can SLIM DOWN!! waited for a longlonglong time before the bus came and fetch us there. so we had a fun-filled time with kenny. laughing non-stop and jeryee and pris laugh till their face turn RED a couple of times can. ROFLMAO. we joked around and made kenny's day i guess. =D and when we wanted to take the lift down to the main lobby after our visit...smth eerie happened!! the button to level one went faulty. pris kept pressing but the lift didn't receive the command. so i stretched out my hands to press level two instead of going down the panel to reach for the button "B". PTL man!! guess where does the button "B" would bring us to?? the mortuary!!! OMG!!! if the door really opens ..i'll freak off man! everyone will sure take a step back and SHOUT! LOL.... kkx.. so its about 8pm when we leave the hospital and headed home. went across the overhead bridge thinking that there'll be bus 95 to bring us back to buona vista stn but so so so ...there isn't when we checked the board. so i said this "ehh...dun have lehh. we climb back want? den take 97 to JE den train" jon replied" NO! lets' check the chart first." see the difference? this is how a gong person will react at such time when she sees on path while a wise man sees a clearer vision. LOL.... wahh, like preaching sia. =p kkx, so reached home and had durian for supper den bed time! =D

hey kenny, w368 misses you much! GET WELL SOON!

our prayers will follow you! =)) and leslie has a new short name "les". so eeyerr!! LOL

2007-09-01T00:24:00.000+08:00

alright...lets start from friday when i meet the crazy peeps to school for teacher's day celebration..and i'm speechless with the performance. not in a way that's well done but rather unexpected. when the student councellors actually did a "sex" dance on stage?? performing intimacy?? its just awful alright... and they're suppose to be "role models"?? and its ROFLMAO when the sec1 ppl had a skit on stage and i guess their narrations fell on deaf ears as noone listens!! i only caught this part..." chestnut, cashew nut and coconut!" when they modified it from the powerpuff girls?? SO DAMN CHILDISH CAN ! alright, just before we left school, we bid farewell and MS AGNES SUAN ME AGAIN ! and its always the topic....I AM SHORT! and YES, i dread to grow TALLER k...hahas. headed to JP to have lunch with ( yvonne.kailing.puisan.guopei.jianlin.benjamin.weixin.richard.choohong) and met ( tina.jing.suan.xue.col.jiahui) to citylink IT fair soon after ... saw kam with new hair!! OMG..he rebonded! and surely we laughed =D and the usual..(jyhchau.alicia.serene.liyin) all working at the fair. Zzzzz! so we went to swensen's!!! guess what we ordered?? ... summit, choc crunch, banana split and merimint. but but but...the 7 of us only paid $2.80 each for the fattening desert! incredible ehh?! really saved up alot! thanks to jing's voucher. after that, its window shopping and went back ard 9plus.... headed to JE to find someone and reached home only near 11... tiring day!!!

- when you have a pair of eyes, you count it a blessing... but when one of them sins, its better to have only one that profits the kingdom.

woke up automatically with this still soft voice that messaged "...one eye is better than two..." and its not like you have to dig out the one that causes you to sin but rather liken to shooting. you have to close one eye for accuracy and to keep your life on track, be sure of your step. everything happened for a reason. its because of a choice you chose earlier that gives you this friut of your decision now. never regret what you've done but remember the battle, never do it again! be certain when you make a decision, consider the cost... primary, secondary...is it profitable to your soul??

left house at 9 and gave jesse tuition early in the morning! thumbs up for me please... i am so responsible and hardworking! =p alright, went for ministry and its enjoyable. my all time favourite to be with those kids! =D and did that piece of art&craft...its cute (pic below)! the kids love it lohhx..mwahahaha... and didn't realise its teacher's day today...so one of the kids mum actually bought pris and i a present (pic below)! i am BLESSED! received a total of 4 presents and a treat from church...PIZZA! and surely when the ministry ends...its the start of fellowship and definitely...ruth will make me laugh non-stop lohhx. its forever that you will either hear my laughter or see me smile. *grins. took a lift from bernie to church and was super duper early! saw the sermon outline on " THE NARROW WAY! "..and i can't wait for the preaching to start!! definitely was blessed and am going to meditate on them. shall post some revelations later this week =))

after svc went to suntec and meet joel and raymond for dinner with pris.. its their treat!! LOL.... had n.y.d.c hmmm, food not bad la. i ordered a spaghetti meal- when pigs fly.. everyone..please laugh at this dish. its hilarious alright. when i saw this on the menu, i LAUGHED! kkx, den home sweet home. tml meeting pris for a swim...shall see if its possible for me (this living pig) to drag myself out of bed ehh. =D Nites everyone!!

2007-08-30T20:23:00.000+08:00

this is so so so terrible!! i was tempted to have union with my bed for an hour longer and so i was lazy to get up. ended up missed the gym session and swimming with elda! sorry dear!! i cancelled the appoointment with you. =( but looking at extra tyre i have now, kinda regretted...should have gone for the "slimming session".urghh! LOL... kkx dear, wil make it up for you next week k?? I PROMISE!! =D

-Love is sometimes measured lukewarm because you never know how much you love the person. you might think that your sacrifice is definitely more than the other but again, what makes you think so?? you never know how mouch the other has put into this relationship. during sunny seasons, both are enjoying and wat about times thru the rains?? who would be the one crying?? noone sees the tears under the rain..

-edited-

OMG!!! hahahas went to lakeside to fetch galdys and i met my LONGTIME FAVOURITE TEACHER!!! AUNTY GLORIA!!! i love her so so much!! and she still remembers my name!!! ok, let me count...123456 years from then i left that childcare and i saw her and she recognise me! I AM SO HAPPY!!! she's the prettiest aunty there and she's the one who taught me how to dance! i could still remember those street dance steps, cha-cha, ballroom and ribbon dance!! i promised her to visit her more often =D *can you all see the smile on my face now?! LOL..

alright, den went to gladys place and had a wonderful time with her. i feel like i'm not teaching for the sake of money but rather a pleasure.. think both of us enjoyed the time spent together?? hehheee...careful ohh, we might become les. (choi! she so young! =p) kkx, den back home to have dinner but instead i only ate a piece a chicken and 2 yam cakes..i'm full.. guess i've got enough fats to keep me warm and energetic. hahahahaha...

2007-08-29T10:42:00.001+08:00

FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY I GOT THE TIME TO SLEEP!!! was real tired after all the muggings and FINALLY its holidays! and i am yearning to visit macritchie to RUN! anyone interested?? =)) guess i'm getting fatter and fatter each day and being more clumsy le! just went to the coffeshop and bumped into TWO chairs before getting out onto the pavement. its like what the! can't even walk properly arh..hahas..

-Why does your hair stays combed longer than your mind stays renewed.

was just pondering on this sentence and thinking...what is my fresh mannor today that makes me wake up and move on?? am i living today relying on what i have yesterday or thinking of what will happen tml?? or would it be a fresh anoiting and rhema word given for the season??

alright, guess i would be spending my whole day at home and i really miss home. =D ...hmmm, except to give jesse tuition in the evening. and oh...gotta prepare worksheet for the kids this week.. so tough can?! i was up last night till 2am and finally done with the spreadsheet..still got activities to plan and stuffs....TOUGH.. but i'm enjoying whenever i look at the harvest i'll reap, it makes me move on =)) saw 2 dresses from online shopping...shd i get them? gimme comment on my tag k. thanks! haish...now nothing to do so think going to make pancake and solo at home..hahahahaha...byessss

2007-08-29T10:42:00.000+08:00

http://dazzlingillusion.imeem.com/music/nTFnF7_A/god_of_my_forever/

God of my youth I remember
Your call on my life took me o’er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace
On this altar I’ve written my life
Tells of a story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

Chorus
God of my forever
And forever I’m with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King

God of my all I’ve surrendered
My heart finds its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You’re here with me
In the end just to hear You say “Well done”
Bowing before Your throne

Bridge
Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

2007-08-28T14:13:00.000+08:00

hahas...woke up LATE to meet jeryee so changed the time to 12..but i only reach at 1230!! and she just waited for me patiently! applause applause! =D and one thing, she didn't blame me! LOL... and it was pouring like CRAZY!!! as what good girls do, follow what mum tells you to. so i held the umbrella against the directions of the rain and it ended up looking quite weird cos the umbrella is not held upright. =p and den, the rain went more haywired...its coming from all directions and poor us, sharing one umbrella; wet from top to toe. i was screaming throughout the whole journey and finally reached home...my shirt and skirt is "dripping"wet (even my undergarments! urghh! )...so washed up and get ready to tutor her...

when i saw the past year prelims paper i did...i was like OMG!!! guess i cleanly forgotten bout what stock valuation is; propreitorship; amalgamation and stuffs... i dropped my jaw.. not long, jeryee said suan's coming over later. suddenly i see light ehh.so skipped those that i'm clueless and waited for suan. managed to help her abit lahhx..den i went to iron my clothes while the both of them continued their "tuition". left her place ard 5 and acc suan for "dinner" before going to fetch gladys for another tuition...zzzzz! ended up taking 335 back home. too sian to tutor liao. =p postphoned it to thursday. hahas..you can never escape your responsibility!

2007-08-24T20:15:00.000+08:00

whoahh...suddenly dunno why and what made me open the side drawer and den flip thru those papers...and its sermon notes! whoahh!!! get the hint?! kkx, den saw this :
THE PILLARS OF GREATNESS -part 6 (by Reverend Robb Thompson)

The 7 Most Essential People In Your Life -
get a person for each of it

1. Those who motivate you to OBEY.
(kisses of the enemy is deceitful!)
2. Those who are guided by their CHARACTER.
(your character frames your world)
3. Those who are assigned to your FUTURE.

4. Those who DEFEND you in your absence.

5. Those who FEAR God more than they love you.

6. Those who unlock your GRATTITUDE.

7. Those who inspire you to SOW.
(outcome of life is seen in your sowing)

the best funeral i ever attended was my own..i'm so taken away!!

2007-08-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

Oops~feeling so sorri to someone. really sorri!! i didn't mean to hurt. forget it k? perhaps time will heal the wound? haiis...too fast with words...the result of feeling guilty... stupiddddddddddd...talk so much for wat arh meiling?!

hmmm, stayed home WHOLE DAY!!! hahas..watched tv from noon till night. didn't even touch my work which is like so MESY on my desk now. i simply pack them by stacking them up =p ... genius me? since tml oso need to touch them ma, keep in file oso no use. so i just did that and back to blog. =D now its NEAT! i'm so "wu liao!"

Ohh suddenly remembered what I watched today. Read this peeps! It’s touching till I tear in front of the TV k! OMG! I was glued to channel 5 the whole day and this show "extreme makeover home edition" the one that re-designs homes for people. Anyone knows what I’m talking?? Alright, there's this 8-year-old girl, kassandra, who suffered with a tennis ball huge tumour in her stomach since birth has battled against death and survived after several torturous operations and side effects. Her cancer cells are strictly controlled with tons of medicines and she has overcome all that a child could not have done! She is just so powerful! When her video was flashed for the makeovers to decide if they're helping...I teared! She is so STRONG mentally! Flashing back her childhood of this bald headed gal with a wide spread smile, just like Mr MacDonald’s'. What does it take for her to smile? COURAGE! She smiled though with her permanent disease! She smiled when she's in pain! She smiled with her problems! And now, she's home to rest...She wants the makeovers to groom the hospitals so that the other cancer patients will see no more white walls. She believes that the environment could help to speed up recovery of the others. Despite of her condition, instead of wanting people to help her, she wants others to help her to help others! What do normal kids always wants? It’s all their WANTS. But kassandra wants to help others. Her WANTS are the other patients smile and recovery! Impressed?! Kids are sure a motivation peeps. I LOVE KIDS! She even started making beads to raise funds for the cancer patients. Looking at this young gal’s heart, kassandra just makes the reason to treasure life. She believes that it’s always better to give than to take and so, she decided to help the patients in the hospital. So the construction started with her directing the workers and stuffs. She is such a child that makes her parents proud and honoured. Nobody knows how long more will she be with us but still I’ll keep her in prayers. She’s the girl baby!

2007-08-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

whoo~ back from church and am so so tired! woke up super late for ministry today and had to rush out... todays' lesson was on Birthday and there's so so many kids!!! first time ever when the nursery room was occupied to the doorstep!!! PTL !!! really thank God for the multiplication =))

service was great!!! Dr. A.R. Bernard gave a awesome message on linking the church to us being the temple of the church itself everyday! we use LOVE as a tool to live our life and carrying the spiritual and moral likeness to the world! Great!

2 Cor 4:8 "we are hardpressed from every side but we have not cracked" bcos we have the treasure in life given to us by the Lord to withstand the pressure and thus we will not crack.

>>Greater is He that's in me than he that's in he world.

learned a new worship during svc just now and its so !!! undescripable....

>>oh God of my Forever! [my greatest honour would be to serve you my Lord and king] decision can be made in a moment but commitment is a lifelong process. the level of your determination to accomplish your goal is measured by what it takes to make you quit. true? agree? so, at what point you collapse is the degree you're strong in.

2007-08-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

as the deer pants for the water
so my soul longs after you
you alone are my heart's desire
and i long to worship you

you alone are my strength, my shield
to you alone may my spirit yield
you alone are my heart's desire
and i long to worship you

i want you more than gold or silver
only you can satisfy
you alone are the real joy giver
and the apple of my eye

you're my friend and you are my brother
even though you are a king
i love you more than any other
so much more than anything

2007-08-09T14:13:00.000+08:00

woke up super early by dad's bang when he leave the house! urghh! next is mum coming into my room to check if i went out? urghh! can't get back to sleep and so, did some 'sewing' cos one of my top abit loose and needs to be altered. i did it on my own! yea..peifu ma?? LOL den mum sat at my study table and started her ''chantings''...she so damn funny...
mum: your hair "alot horx"
me: ya lohhx..you want sponsor me go cut hair?
mum: i now cut for you want?
me: choi!
mum: in the past i had a hair cut which cost me $50 over and i looked like a coconut! everything so short and my fringe is flat! had to pay so much for that stupid hair. haiis..
me: ROFLMAO!!!! COCONUT!!! *alright, imagine my mum once had a coconut head?!
mum: really! even my friends ask me...why i go perm my hair till like that? so awful!
me: you never complain mehh? ...
mum: no lahhx, complain also won't get my hair sticked back. scold also no use.
me: den you never ask for discount cos your hair so ugly??
mum: what's on my mind was to go home straight lo. stay there let people laugh only.
*thanks mum, for starting my day with laughter.*

nationals day...day of celebrations...day of independence... later going to watch the parade with janice and co. den think meeting sec school friends to chill out awhile b4 heading home bahhx =D haix..still down with cough and flu but by Jesus stripes, i'm healed! yeayeayea~

2007-08-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

wonderful night with my bedd yea~~9 full hours of sleep...shiok!! =p this is my second day of coming back with the Lord and I was guided to this book LAMENTATIONS... ITS GREAT!!
Jerusalem was actually the first land that God had chosen to speak to mankind and in its first chapter, God put in sorrows to Jeruselem! the one who was once great now sits like a widow, once a queen has became slave for the Lord has punished Jerusalem for her many sins.

He would place a trap in your path to turn you back.

The Lord has cast a dark shadow over beautiful Jerusalem and He has shown no mercy even to his temple. All the strength of Israel vanishes beneath his anger. He has broken down his own temple as though it was merely a garden shelter. they have cried until their tears no longer comes..their hearts are broken. This city called "Most Beautiful in All the World" and "Joy of All the Earth", God was determined to destroy its beautiful walls.

Never grieve God with your sins for you will be like grapes that are trampled in a winepress.

The thoughts of suffering and homelessness is bitter beyond words. but still, you'll still dare to hope that the faithful love of the Lord never ends! His mercies never cease. so it is good to wait quietly, sit alone in silence for no one is abandoned by the Lord forever. No one is made perfect and instead, all has the ability to sin against him. so why should we, mere humans, complain when we are punished for our sins?

Instead, let us test and examine our ways. Let us turn back to the Lord. Lifting our hearts and hands to God in heaven and say, we have sinned and rebelled, and you have not forgiven.

Lamentations 2:19
Rise during the night and cry out.
Pour out your hearts like water to the Lord.
Lift up your hands to Him in prayer,
pleading for your children,
for in every street they are faint in hunger.

watched the news at nine and there is so many droughts, famines, outbreak of diseases and flooding! The time is coming for his return but what are all his labourers doing? i really teared and made a cry to Him. a prayer that meant really from my heart. look at their sufferings oh Lord. see them lying in the streets - young and old, boys and girls. Let there be a shelter of protection over them Lord. You never forsake anyone who has yet to hear the goodnews..Lord! provide a vessel of aid in their times of need, let them know that you are always there lord. And when all your creation see you face to face, they will praise your name the most High King.

2007-08-07T09:53:00.000+08:00

alright, guess i've been acting strong these days and neglecting my health?? this stupid virus just struck me in the middle of the day when i just finish tutoring glady and walked home with a stretched mind. i'm bursting! just feeling so tired and needed rest but i already took a nap during noon time le ehh! lol...and when i did another tuition with jesse, my head is just bursting! the devil is just not happy that i'm picking up my steps again uhh...hahas...i'm back ! you stupid devil.. its all in the minds of man! i thought i was lost but now i'm found! =D

didn't sleep well for the night and its' terrible experience! Oh My Tian!! i wanted to vomit but couldn't...wanted to cough but couldn't...all i did was visiting the toilet for the whole night! urghhhh....wat sia.... sweat for the whole night le..guess fever subsided...but body is aching like dunno wat lahhx! haiyos...going to see doc later...badd badd..

LOL...suddenly rmb the joke on chatroom -- Oh My Tian, Oh My Di, Oh My Mama, Oh My Papa, Oh My Guan Yin Ma!
LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL

A fire shall always be burning at the altar; it shall never go out. (lev 6:13)

2007-08-05T17:46:00.000+08:00

alright, how did i spent all these days?? movies after movies.. had simpson's with weizhi at bugis, den disturbia with pris at ps and alone with winifred, wilfred and pris at tamp. i didn't really enjoy the simpsons as mind was loaded more with miseries than joy. certain scenes got smile abit lahhx, but haix... disturbia is all about killing! and it is really creepy in that murderer's house!! i screamed like crazy in the theatre! ... alone even worse, i closed my eyes for every scene whenever the other twin would appear. pim and ploy...OMG! who is which?! and i scared wini's wit out! =p i treambled, i screamed, i curled and i hid away from the screen! hahas...very waste money horx? but i guess its a good start to relax my mind ba? =D

hmmm, ytd took my weight at wini's house and YES, i slimmed down! its either a kg or two cos i weighed with diff machines and both with diff results?? ... tired tired tired...slept the night away for 10 hours and woke up eat and sleep again for 2hours..how great arhh piggy meiling.. now watch tv le lohhx... nth to do. no mood to touch my work. still gotta prepare lessons for jesse and ministry..TIRED! hahas...go relax first. no blogging for 2weeks till my exams end. bbies...

2007-08-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

was at tampiness mac..somewhere near janice house for the whole morning!! didn't charge my phone for the night so whole day without phone..still not bad la. i manage to pass time with the mp3 and waited for pris, janice and sally to finish school. i waited for around 6hours!!! OMG...and my butt definitely ache till numb. den met pris's san yi for "lunch dinner" at ding tai feng..and the bill is jaw breaking! we only ordered 10 xiao long bao, 10 red bean bao and 2 plates of fried rice..it costs us $47.65! pris is stil not full so went to buy duck rice..and we went to the stage where her aunts perform...AND i also played on stage! it was my first time putting on the makeups and its... OMG!! and to remove makeups, i applied so many oils!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEE... but afterall, ITS FUN... living a life with no regrets! mwahaha...

-while waiting during the 6 hours, i wrote a 2 pages long essay to myself-

#if only we could learn to trust

I didn't know that you were treating her so well...I’m confused by your words. Sometimes having magnanimity is just not enough to forgive and forget. I thought you would stop having her in your mind but still, there are only my thoughts..not yours. So all you need was her to be with you. I thought you could fill this emptiness in me once again but I’m wrong. Stop giving me disappointment because it will never be displaced off with my Hopes.
Time has a habit of slipping away. I really don’t know, and I really don’t! Months have just passed like that and it will never return to me. I feel like I’ve been crying under the rain so that no one knows I’m crying. Where can I house my disappointments? When will I stop needing you? It’s a year and 4 months rs now and I’m now still left pondering on the memories. What about you?
To that someone:
Before you even know what’s wrong, you started blaming me. I can honestly tell you that I have no harm in saying all tat I’ve said and it’s without regret. Your interest was in my mind whenever I speak because I know that you are stressed up with so many other things. Why do you think that I’m a flirt?! Why do you detest me so much when I did nothing? Ask those around you that you trust..I’m sure they’ll tell you the situation instead of siding me. Can you please stop hurting me with your thinking’s. I feel really BAD!! I want to love you as a sister but I guess I’ve invited the dark clouds which cause my tears to keep flowing. Ask yourself, do I have any benefits or motives to blame or ‘frame’ your ****? It was true that I’m t******* and I didn’t intend to tell you because I knew that you wouldn’t believe. It will spoil your image of him! I too thought that it was unintentionally but looking at a long run cause, now is the time to speak out before it’s too late to even cry over it. It would only be me who is hurt most as I would be the one carrying these unpleasant memories for life. Even aunty **** also agreed that it was right for me to voice it out. So do you think I want to spoil your f******? You cannot deny that mans are lustful in nature. I have to speak out myself! I am speechless lahhx. You would rather choose the other than sparing a thought for me. Please, I hope you’d understand. I surrendered to my tears le. Enough... LORD! Hide me now under your wings! Help me calm the ranging seas...that came crashing over me.
To myself:
Yes, she may deny that she didn’t do anything. I might be too self-conscious and so it might be a misunderstanding. BUT! It occurs so much so that even people are pointing fingers at you, saying that you are...how could I be wrong then? Yes, she’s a helper and she wouldn’t gossip or bear grudges or have any unclean thoughts but even those around you are saying you are...I don’t know how much more you want to defend yourself. I am really confused with 3 different stories. And even Cheryl doesn’t even know what’s happening. And fine, though I’ve forgiven, I still can’t bring myself to trust you and I still got to apologise for not liking you! OH MAN... rubbishes!
To ********:
Yes, it’s not your fault to be cautious about your cluster members’ life but you are too overboard le! Don’t you think so? Guard your house before you start worrying about how others are doing. Open your eyes wider! I am trying so hard to leave this thing aside and am not opening doors for anyone! I’m thrown back into it again by you i guess. Thanks arhh! Haix...Know your people before knowing me! I really don’t like you to care because I feel uneasy! Stop using a different eye to look at us! We are humans! Unless you tell me that you’re an alien. Don’t think that your life is really so transparent...if someone one day really spills the beans, you’ll be sorry. There’s nothing wrong for us to be close friends...aren’t you and the rest doing the same?! And what’s wrong for me to ask bingzhong for help with my bag when it is so damn heavy and you treated me as a flirt?! OH FOR GOODNESS SAKE, can I also say that you are flirting with K*** or rather the other 143 guys?! Stop all your defending lahhx...Hypocrite!! Is your ministry more important than your integrity?! You don’t even dare to admit?!

>>meiling<<

slimmed down! =D but still my face looks round -.-"

in both of you, i'm such a xiao nu ren...

but this time round, i'm alone..STRONG!
i always thought that loving people is easier than detesting ppl but now,
haix...do unto others just as you would like them to do unto you. ^o^

2007-07-30T02:14:00.000+08:00

ok...peeps, try this PSLE maths questions. if u can't solve them..thank God that you have already completed yours. LOL =D

Lina has 20% as many stickers as kenny. kenny has 125% as many stickers as Rita. if kenny givens 9 stickers to Rita, kenny and Rita will have an equal number of stickers. find the average number of stickers they have in all. (my ans: 7 stickers)

At a fair, the ratio of males to females is 3:2 . there were twice as many men as boys and 2/3 of the females were girls. Given that there were 90 more girls than boys, find the total number of ppl at the fair. (my ans: 2250)

in a class, 16 of the pupils were boys. then 3/4 of the girls left the classroom. if 1/6 of the original number of of pupils are now girls, find the number of pupils in the class at first. (my ans: ???)
*as for this qns, i tried so many times but the number is not in whole..so i gave up and post it here. -.- *

i just can't stop crying for the night! why is it this case?! knowing more is just adding on to my burden to solve it. how can i not be affected?! haiis...tina gave me this comment in friendster which made me so touched to tears! i simply love her. it goes like this --
"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past" isa43:18
some things that are done, treat it as a case study; a stepping stone to make us grow.
i will alwaes be here for u.. stand strong & let it GO!!
whahahhahahahahahaha =)

2007-07-29T04:20:00.000+08:00

is being truthful and conscience clear a nerve to ur life?? yes..i was honest with every little area of my life now knowing that i want to walk out of it and breakthrough. having enough of all the drama shows the both of u have for each other. all the misses and loves are overly expressed which makes me nowhere to stand and nothing to do. i am speechless, clueless. i just need help from God. if u dun do it, others will do it for u. just position urself right for God's power to come upon u again. i wanted soo much to leave everything behind but knowing that an innocent life is entering this sinful gate..i can't make myself to be excused and ignore. i just can't do it. i feel like i'm living a life liken to a bouncing ball. the harder u hit, the higher it'll bounce but once smth heats it a little harder, it gives in and deviates. i am bouncing so hard to get out of this well but it seems that i am thrown back once again. knowing what is wrong and still doing it is a double portion of sin and not being naive or innocent.. don't be ignorant!! i wish i could guard my life for God..the physical and spiritual gateways. i've been crying for months now and it seems like an onion could always make u cry but there has never been a vegetable invited in to make it laugh.

2007-07-27T19:24:00.000+08:00

went cgm ytd and and and its ministering. and it was like 10.30pm when i finally had my turn! its so long! OMG...and so, had a quick one and rushed back home to prepare for tml's BComm presentation! i'm freaking hell scared now that i won't score well ehh...just dunno why. but all said this time i did better..so ya. thank God for giving me strength to burn midnight oil last night. =)) &&& i killed a INSECT IN MY ROOM! it was so so disgusting! a eight legged creature with fine long legs thinner than a strand of hair and a long body just about the same length as a third of your index finger. now, can uu all now imagine what i saw last night?! yeeeyerrr. *goosebumps popping up le! LOL and i KILLED IT. the brave meiling was on act last night when everyone was soundly asleep at home. meiling had saved the night! mwahaha...if not, my usual self would normally lead me to dad and wake him up for rescue! lol....

did the BComm thingy till dawn when the night is turning bright and i could hear birds chirping alr and i've yet to be on my bed!! incredible me to be able to stay up for the night with my mind so clear to think bout my speech! LOL it was 5am when i finally kissed my pillow before resting and its 7.45 when alarm rang, 8.05 when mum's shout penetrated thru the door and into my ear...dun need go school arhh?! and again 8.20 when i finally gathered all my energy to drag my head off the soft cloud and wash up. SO TIRED! had only a cup of milo for school and dashed out of the door. my presentation supposedly shd take me ard 6min when i rehearsed last night with clar but with God's wisdom and guidance, i finshed my presentation in 4min 30sec!! i made it within 5min! and everything went so so so smoothly! PRAISE THE LORD! hahahahs...but i was the forst to present. so wonder if i made a good start when ppl tends to be attentive in the beginning?? hmmm, den went to SIM for lunch with jingxuan and yahui while and JESY and co. went to clementi for KFC. came back for an hour lecture and i DOZED OFF infront of the lecturer! ohh...grave mistake. so rude of me la! hahas...but still i put in effort to keep myself awake for a few more minutes lohhx. den hurried home to rest le.

was on 154 and saw hoho...chatted with him awhile and i dozed off agn. so funny...he counted the number of stops he need to alight and den b4 he left, he still double confirm, "is it this one that i got to alight ??" he so gong lohhx. was back home and did the laundry. took alot of pics today but shall post it up when i receive them other day. hmmm....kkx, time for revision. bbies =D

2007-07-25T16:48:00.000+08:00

hihi...just went for a swim and now back at home after CATS class... =D i swam 10 laps for the day! yea!! *clar, i this time really swim laps le! LOL..believe me arhh..cos today school's pool nobody..so can swim slowly and freely. hahas....swam for about an hour half and went to wash up before meeting gary for lunch..but he came into the pool and soo..he saw me in my swimsuit...urggh -.-" another thing to -.-" is --- a guy wants my number in the pool! OMG..i freak out la. i was like HUH?!

him: can i have your number?
me: HUH?!
him: can i?
me: exchange msn instead ok??
him: *immediately passed his phone to me*
me: *panic* instantly forgot how to use samsung phone...
me: can i tell you den u type urself?
him: ok =))

i msging pris at that time too...
me: EHH...got guy ask for my number! HOW?!
pris: den you give him? good lohhx..like that can dun need me liao.
me: HUH..no lohhx i never give. this time abit clever liao. i exchange msn. =p
pris: good good.my clever gal. ^.^
me: -.-"

WTH (wat the heaven) LA... LOL.. ohh, dun ask me how he looks like cos i alr forgotten liao =p
so gary waited outside the toilet for me and den head to canteen 2 to eat western. didn't finish the food cos not nice de..the chicken cutlet is in chips! not those one piece de la..aiya...just not nice de. den went to pass my photo to yongqing for the interview thingy...

now at home going to sweep and mop the floor lohhx. me be aunty today =D later going to tutor jesse ....tired ehh, and i want to start my revision! how how how?? asking laogong out to pei me le. hahas...soon it'll be the end of time if i dun start now ehh.. meiling! JIAYOU! everyone in TA03/04 must all jiayou together arhh!

2007-07-24T10:05:00.000+08:00

FINALLY i got the connection at home to use the net man... after 3 days of leaving this lappy there rotting, it finally works with the net. hmmm, just thinking if she was my friend till now. hahas, just thinking redundantly bahhx....who noes who am i to her?? pls tell me!! times i tried to tie back this friendship knot but ... hmm... is it not meant to be ??

ohh, dunno where to start blogging and so.. i shall talk bout ytd onli =))
went to school as usual and its all tutorials for the day... kinda bored! and darling did smth so foolish and cute la.. u noe what she did?! she was actually dozing off in class when her head went spinning out of control and in order to keep herself awake for the last tutorial - BStats, she tried biting her toungue! and still cannot make it, she took a pencil and poke her little finger till it went red! darling so so so cute! LOL... oOops..we were deducted by our participation marks because we were late for her lesson. hmm, yvonne sure not happy la. i still ok la. just suan liao lohhx. " ren qi wo, wo bu qi. wo qi jiu zong ji " hahas...

den 5.15pm went on excursion round the school finding block 15 with elda, zhengxing and yahui.. and we went walking round the whole balcony of the level and i went super high.. dunno how explain la..but ya..went walking..and finally found the entrance. =D went to look for mrs leong for interview to myanmar.. and i guess it went smoothly...hoping for another interview yea.. oOo..and i'll be away for 2 weeks if i'm selected!! and it so falls on my bd week...so suay la. hahas, but i still sign up ley =p

terrible me who had only a slice of plain bread, one pathetic hotdog and a few cheries..tt's all for my dinner!!! and in the day i onli had a few pieces of fried fish..so i'm supper hungry now after a night! urghh..suan le lohhx =p

ohh..so excited to go with elda for a SWIM this wed...ehh, which is tml liao lohhx HAHAX.. pls dun tell me i'm not fat because i guai guai listen and convincing myself that i'm not fat and kept eating and eating everyday and not excersing!! i've got a free tyre here with me now, anyone wants?! LOL ... i am going to slim down before my bd yea!!! jiayou!!! i want a 5kg decrease!! HELP... hahahahahahaha

2007-07-18T21:37:00.000+08:00

Am i a P.I.G ??? smell like one, look like one, behave like one but i'm not the one! LOL

Having dealt with the “old man” for many years I think the term P.I.G. is very apt, because it so defines a creature that is totally self-centered and self-indulgent. The pig cares for no one but himself—“I want it for myself, and I want it NOW!” but always take time to look at those people ard you and think for them and not you alone. people often choose a smal but immediate reward now for themselves, at the expense of a much larger reward later. so, P.I.G in short is to avoid a small punishment now only to get a bigger punishment later.

Some incentives to maintain godliness such as physical health, professional success, or loving relationships may have giant rewards, but they do not always have a quick payoff. In contrast, the gratification produced by incentives such as drugs, alcohol, sex or food is immediate, and for that reason exert an influence on our behaviour that is completely out of proportion to reality.

I have found that at the moment of decision—to sin or not to sin—reality is bent in favor of sin. At that moment we cannot appreciate that what we are about to do is foolish, wrong or unhealthy—a perspective that would be obvious to an outsider. The closer we get to temptation the more blind we become until a total eclipse of reason and righteousness transpires. We actually believe that we are perceiving reality objectively but alas we are not, we are in the arms of sin. The problem is, once sin is sitting on your lap, it is hard to say no.

We fail because we allow ourselves to get too close to temptation, thinking we can handle it, but we get sucked in as if we had just orbited too close to a black hole. Perpetrating the sin is inevitable; escape is not even a consideration! Immediacy to the “feel-good” accelerates the process.

After the fact, the guilt and all the “How could I have been so stupid?” comments, our actions seem foolish because we are further away from that particular temptation. The physical presence of crack exerts a tremendous influence on an addict’s behavior in a way he does not—and cannot—appreciate until he is removed from the temptation. The same is true for all temptation. Will power is only as powerful as the distance between you and sin in either a physical or a spiritual sense.

this post sure take me very very long to put words through my mind.. so ALL ... pls read it for more than once so that you will also be blessed with my thoughts for the week =))

2007-07-13T00:29:00.000+08:00

wwhahahaha..... lay your hand on him; Remember the battle - never do it again! Job 41:8

=> am so blessed to have you by my side...really thank you! words just can't explain the thoughts in my mind now but sure you'll uds. the angels in heaven knows i love you. LAOGONG !!! mwarkhs. Daisies are yellow & tulips are orange. yadda yadda. the significance of our love is a red tip on a yellow rose. =D

really want to thank you for staying by me always. even if its not physically, spiritually i noe that you are there. =))

smile through your problems and you will gain much more than expected. i am called to be CONQUERER Knowing that You are always with me!!! ~YEA~

2007-07-10T01:38:00.000+08:00

Trains of thoughts just went rushing into my mind...

Finally I completed my BSTATS test today and its like OH MAN...it’s just 4 qns and i turned my notes last night to rotten pieces. just hoping that i would get good grades this time round huh... =D

Trained to city hall raffles city to meet up my ministry peeps for dinner at sushi tei. (Are they peeps to me??) hahas...because pris and I were the only teens among the majority BBG peeps. Kinda awkward but anyway, really enjoyed myself. Apart from all the delicacies, which was obviously a sumptuous dinner i had with them, we had also a time of sharing bout the vision of the ministry. Scholastic, Mature, Articulate, Responsible, Thinking = SMART tuition programme. We believe that all our kids will turn out to be pillars of the society when they learn and grow together with this big family.

Friends, i would like to throw u a question. Wat is success to you?? Is it just measured by dollars and cents or something more?? The saying goes - a man without vision is without a future. Is your vision added with time frame, purpose, and cost?? Have you specifically identified it and what expectations you would give yourself to attain it?? And if you were to count your number of days left on earth, oh man, do something to your life now. By graduating with a recognised cert, it determines your starting pay, your starting position, your cutting edge above all. The passport to promotion is in EXCELLENCE and PROBLEM-SOLVING. I would never want to pass my life without fulfilment. Never. Before you would come out with a problem, always back it up with a solution in mind.

A scenario of a kid from a single-parent family background has a heart for the family to prosper and be happy. What is the little part that we could do?? Ruth saw this average young boy last Saturday with a heavily sat eye bag... it is so hard to find one young boy with both dark eye rings sitting so heavily that no adults could. Keeping it in mind, he still has 2 other younger siblings waiting to be fed by their mum. He was actually waiting for his mum to return home before he could turn in to bed. He stood up the whole night waiting at the void deck and the mother only got home just in time to send her kids for tuition in church b4 returning home to rest. Look into the heart of this young boy, and if we could ease the financial burden of the family by just a 300$ monthly allowance, we could follow this boy up and in turn bless the family and community back with this little blessing we have for him in the long run. Never belittle your little.

I guess, my given talent is the heart for kids. It is just so amazing that i have no problems with kids. I just love them for who they are. Innocent, naive, pure, thoughtful, obedient, noisy, active, quiet- just so you can name. I am enjoying myself in this ministry and learnt alot! One of which is to be liberal with praises. Kids do get attention when you praise them. Just a “good job” from you, it will lift the kids confidence and self esteem higher. So why not?? I also learnt to be patient! Whooo~ i used to throw temper whenever i dun get what i want and looking at it, if someone were to do the same, it could be nerve racking to save the situation. Hahas... always use the Chinese word- ren. Triggering the creative side of mine, i enjoy playing with kids and showing them pictures, books, and samples. You can just play a game with your own rules n logic, the kids just gets HIGH with you. Hahahaha...It is so fun to be with kids!

A fire shall always be burning at the altar; it shall never go out. (Lev 6:13)

thoughts: are you in a minstry for the sake that God has called you to serve and here you are saying " just use me" or you really have a passion and heart to serve. if you are called for it, you will be given a double protion of anoiting and covering so that you will walk through and conquer..dun stagnate for too long before you start moving on.

2007-07-03T12:43:00.000+08:00

would u hold me tight once again??
tears just can't stop flowing..why?? why must it be her??

shd calm myself down b4 i start blogging again ba..
who's with me and who's against me??
who do i have now but YOU. >.<

beyond your imagintion that ppl do have diff thinkings !

even babies too..just a tinch of unhappines they find, they'll just cry ! maybe their logic and senses is not comprehensible ?? who noes ??

july would be a overcoming period... i will not be trampled !

here i come !! running back into your arms, i will.

2007-06-28T23:43:00.000+08:00

how nice would it be when we face God with righteousness together?? haiis...why are things happening just this way tt everyone is crying?? hmmmm...is it a change of heart?? i really dun wanna say "goodbye" ! i am just forcing myself to stop thinking and move on and away from this cross road..i dun want to let my feelings take control of my mind! urghh! am i going to close this chapter and settle down before the light shines back on me? i am so weak to take control of myself! just this feeling for you that never fades...I LOVE YOU. but your actions for her just made me hold back..i am just not the gal for you..no longer the one you would love blindly and care for wholeheartedly..not the gal who could melt your heart with my smiles and kisses..never again can i. time will just heal this wound in my heart...i want to be STRONG ! i will lead myself away quietly so that it will not hurt the both of you.. meiling ! you got to be STRONG ! though we still get to see each other face to face, distance is sensed and how could i still be strong and smile?? i have once loved you so blindly that i dun have the courage now to open up my eyes and face the reality of you not belonging to me but her alone.

DNA of Christ in me =D
kept myself busy from morning till now so that i won't think of any emotional filtering stuffs. woke up early to meet for CIP project and it took us like 2 full hours just to settle on one final background for the web-page design thingy. so time consuming arhh. =p den lesson lesson lesson...so happy that i got 7/10 for my BComm minutes writing test which i put in majority of the effort than my fren and surely it paid off with the marks i got! ~cool =D

went to the library for CIP project discussion again at 3 and finally our PPT is DONE ! ~happy happy happy. now we are left with prototype and proposal...hmmm, should i say good progress?? i love the teamwork in "wuge wuge"- our teams' name. funny?? try reading it in chinese..we have a total of 5 members..and so......................lalalalalala

i was totally STRETCHED during training! high-knee-lift ?? so long nv do le! initially it was effortlessly done in 15 sec..den coach wanted us to increase speed! so it was like OH MY !!! not again for another 2 sets ?!?! i sensed tsunami in my brain when all the blood is jus rushing ! the liquid traffic in the legs! LOL...~wobbly. and it is never called training without sweat. did the usual 4-man passes and once again, all did 100s of pumpings and cruntches... BOY oh BOY... after that, we had a never ending defense training ...fun and tiring!!

headed back home and had dinner with loagong....erm, hope there won't be a need for explanation why were we tgt ya?? and now...gtg and do my homework that weighs a ton which i can sell to garang-gunee for them to earn big bucks! whahahahaha...wat a sinfull thought.

2007-06-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

went for the stupidiest lesson of the week...CATS a boring teacher, boring module...just got to finish it and i'm done. =D attended for like an hour and felice, siyu and i slacked at canteen 2 for another hour before its time for S&W. hmmm...BOREDOM... after everything, went to find mum while waiting for laogong's msg...stupid lohhx...planned for a gym session but ended up procrastinated. =p kkx...promise to be disciplined and go for it next wed ya?? so instead, went for a hair-cut together..

life is made precious with every heartbeat u beat for..mine is for Him alone =))

yesterday
TRAINING

was a very very tiring day for me..went to school at 12plus, ate onli 2 small little things and left hurriedly to station.. went for 'touch' after CIP and was a little lost as i missed so so so many traings with the team! gosh~faint
had a couple of stitches during the warm up game and i am tired already. *notice the word - warmup...can't imagine why my stamina dropped so much ehh. den did punch-ups and trainings... my split is terrible!! i was the last to pass coach lahhx...terrible me. followed by a 4-man pass and my team had countless of drop balls which ended us doing pumpings!! my hands are wobbly!!! lucky oat asked coach for crunches instead...~shuang but still we did like 100s of pumpings le la. had a friendly game with peeps and i FELL ! is painfull de lohhx!! i slide thru the muddy field and my right leg is with mud...so is my pants. =p i am dirty from head to toe!! got someone* to walk me home and a free sandwhich from her =D thanks dear! hahahahahahaha
reached home slacked awhile before washing up and turning in.. =D

2007-06-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

*slept with a gigantic lizard last night...kept me awake till 3 plus* ...hmmm so ended up late to meet uncle and aunty may for 'lobstering'. instead of meeting them at 11, i reached at 12.40! everyone was waiting for me!!!! hahahs...so paiseh la.

went upper bukit timah for lunch and I AM FULL !! from 1:++ to 6:30, was at sungei buloh lobstering =D so happy there!!!! but unluckily..my RED day came ! STAINED ! poor clar got to help me with the 'job' ehh =p thanks arhh clar bear! mmmwarks! how shall i repay u?? caught 3 lobsters!!! OVERJOYED !! but the total catch for the day was 21! so i never really contribute much la. =p uncle taught me alot alot ! he was talking to me while iii finally caught my first one. =0 i am just going back again SOON yea.. so fun! but legs were real 'sour' while waiting patiently for the lobster...easy to lure, hard to catch. =P

went back to wash up before dinner time. dinner at LOT 1 pizza hut. not fun waiting at all! was so hungry to do anything..waited for an HOUR before the food is being served. sure we got impatient and uncle complained to the manager there. we den got 25% discount and 3 bowls of salad as complementary. hehehehe...*grins. jojo den saw this 'cute' guy and wanted to noe his name. i gave a helping hand and so paiseh la! i looked at his breast tag so obvious and he must have thought ''y this gal want to noe my name? .. " hahs, hope i didn't give the wrong idea that i'm interested in him ehh =p now, finally got our order on the table and its the pathetic garlic bread first. then came the super supreme and hawaiin pizzas, drumlets, soup and salad. FULL. hummm...shall upload the pics taken other day k. now tired le =p

reached home was half dead! tired! having terible stomach ache...think its cos of the duck i had in the afternoon bahh..or is it tt i had too much for dinner? erm...wateva it is..i am now not feeling well and needa turn in as soon as possible. nites nites =D dream well everyone!

2007-06-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

COOKING DAY

woke up very early in the morning to do marketing with aunty may.bought alot of things just to make dumplings. it was real fun la. from the process of preparing to wrapping to boiling... everything just went smoothly..had a sumptious meal with alot alot alot of dumplings!

skipped our plan to swimmimg and instead headed to AMK .. a boring place! so sian la...nth to see, nth to buy. SIAN.. den later headed back home soon after having subway as dinner. bought smth for laogong. a belated one which is exactly the same one i saw at citylink the other other day. CUTE hor dear...LOL (hmm, dun be mistaken of anything arhh...i am single.)

2007-06-21T03:51:00.000+08:00

Believe it or not...I’m still AWAKE... SHIT!!!
i was woken up by a bad bad bad dream and here I am blogging lohhx.
so kelian...I wanna slp!!!
Hmmmm God! Please bless my night with comfort and rest.
I wanna be under my blanket NOW.

Met pris for orchard shopping sphere and we only started at 4.30!
Hmm, realised that my shopping stamina had dropped drastically!
i spent a total of $40 at sheer romance (bikini and a shorts), another $5 on a tube.
but the bag that I saw in the magazine dun have le =(
continued walking to dunno where den I tired liao...
pris was also feeling tired so both decided to go home. =p
homed, ate a little porridge den went to bed SOON.

Ok...nvm. Shall stop all these rubbish.
Hahas saw this 'questionnaire' somewhere. So I decided to do it too.
its long! so it shall help me kill time =D
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1) How old you wish you were ? - i want to ba 16! reminising the sweet 16 b'dae. can some1 help me to make this year sweet too??
2) Where were you when 911 happened ? - how i noe ehh. think at homa bahh
3) What will you do when vending machine steals your money ? - why like that? ... -.-
4) Do you count yourself kind ? - heh, YES! VERY! LOL!
5) If you have a tattoo, where would it be ? - oh please, anyone care to spare me the courage?
6) If you can be fluent in other languages, what would it be ? - ENGLISH. T.T
7) Do you know your neighbour ? - YES. my whole family does. -.-"
8) What you would consider for a vacation ? - just a place to RELAX .
9) Do you follow your horoscope ? - heh, i do read on them and things can turn out quite true. :)
1o) Would you be movie or the person you loved ? - ok, what is this? LOL.
11) Do you get touched easily ? - LOL. emotionally YES..physically??..hard .
12) Dream job ? - a teacher! KIDS impress me with their joy for anything and everything =D
13) Favorite channel ? - i dun like to watch tv.
14) Shower or bath ? - heh, dependss~
15) Do you paint your nails ? - NO!
16) Do you trust people easily ? - maybe.
17) What are your phobias ? - HMMM. i. suddenly. forget them all. heh.
18) Do you want kids ? - Yes please. :D
19) Do you keep a handwritten journal ? - nope
20) Where would you rather be right now ? - hmms. i'm doing fine at home. hehes. im lazy.
21) Who makes you warm and fuzzy ? - blanket and hugs are good enough! :D
22) Heavy or light sleeper ? depends. now mostly light. T.T
23) Are you paranoid ? - maybe i am?
24) Are you impatient ? - depends too. mostly not lahhx.
25) Who are you related to ? - God (i am His child!), prissy (mummiie), suan(laopo)...can't think liao =D
26) What is your ringtone on your handphone ? - jibbs - chain hang low
27) What are you doing last midnight ? - preparing food for someone *grins*
28) Whose bed did you sleep on last night ? - mine of cos... =p
29) What colour shirt you wearing ? - white~
3o) Name 3 things you have all times. - clothes.brain..no more le ehh? hahs
31) What colour is your bedsheet ? pink+white ~ LOL..its my fav one!
32) How much cash you have right now ? hahas, i dunno.
33) What's your favourite part of chicken ? drumstick, wing.
34) Where's your favourite town/city ? - u know what, SINGAPORE is great. :D
35) I can't wait till.. - hmmm, i'm living my day to the fullest le ehh.
36) What you had for dinner last night ? stupid Q.. i had rice, sardine, omelete, soup.
37) Do you have your own gun ? - no. not even a fake one. :(
38) What do you prefer to drink in the morning ? - anything but definitely not milo..i'll shit! LOL.
39) Where do you think you are in 1o years time ? - i'll be 28 by then. hmms. still in singapore. :D
4o) Last thing you ate ? - porridge.
41) What song you listen in the shower ? none.
42) Last thing that makes you laugh ? - urms. HAH. i dunno.
43) Worst injury you have ? - ehh.. the bike fall at pulau ubin -.-
44) What your favourite candy ? - hmms. no preference. just not mentoes mint :)
45) What song do you want to be played in your funeral ? Now that you're near - Hillsong.
46) 1o random people to do this survey ?
ANY! LOL. :D
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ok like finally. wah eyes pain.
still early lehh...how? do one more =p

State 10 Things You Like To Do
(1) LAUGH
(2) sing
(3) praise
(4) run
(5) swim
(6) eat
(7) speak in toungues..PRAY
(8) listen & think
(9) form puzzle..PATIENCE
(10) learn new things

State 10 Things You Believe In (people or religion)
(1) God.
(2) meiyang.
(3) cheryl
(4) tina
(5) priscilla
(6) suanling
(7) END
(8) END
(9) END
(10) END

State 10 Besties(or on good terms with)
(1) priscilla
(2) suanling
(3) tina
(4) jeryee
(5) huijing
(6) xueting
(7) colene
(8) jonathan
(9) clarissa
(10) soo many ehh...everyone la (228 + 368 + 5n1 peeps + church)

State 10 Things You Do Everyday
(1) read
(2) pray
(3) bathe
(4) sms
(5) eat
(6) sleep
(7) talk
(8) sing
(9) laugh (i can't make myself to stop)
(10) BRUSH TEETH! :D

State 10 people to do this
ANY! LOL. :D
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2007-06-19T16:14:00.001+08:00

sure its been long to blogg here le ehh...
hahs, look back arh..

thursday, went sentosa with clar bear; jojo; gwengwen; jeryee; prissy and myself ! fun fun fun..we all became cooked lobster at noon and headed for cgm le.

friday met up same peeps + jonathan to CCK stadium and RUN RUN RUN !!! damn tired...had sprints and den jogged. its been longg since i step into CCK stadium. so i began to have the running spirit back with me. i was frightened by both clar and pris on track. LOL. shall not go into details =D stayed over at their place and den had midnight ghost story haunting...lol
pris never stop screaming..gwen never stop grabbing and jeryee never stop covering herself under the blanket. Soooo funny..

sat svc was CHERYL BOK'S birthday !!!! gave her surprise after surprise.. i was running on my heels from hall 1 to hall 6!!! challenging eh...lucky the heels never surrender. =p ...
HUMANITY --> let us be of control of our soul ! spirit, soul and body. oh Lord, awaken my soul! hahs..jus so taken away!! met tina after svc and went WCP tgt... cabbed down and changed... BBQ with choir team only in wee hours and it was pouring the whole night! sadd lohhx...didn't really enjoy and was drenched from head to toe. the night breeze just made us shiver and i went seeking refuge behind jyhchau and weixin's back. LOL ~cold cold cold~

reached home at 8 plus and had a hot bath before turning in to bed in the MORNING.. hahs..slept for 11++ hours and woke up for dinner. went back to bed at 12+ , woke up next morning at 8+.. got ready for school at 9 ! i just can't slp for another hour longer so swept the floor, tidied my room, did some reading and finally the clock striked 10 for me to step out =D was the first to reach school for project work. sian...got to wait =p but its ok..patience will build up my inner man =) after the discussion, it was only 1.30...decided to go meet clar and aunt may at bpp..walked around and aunt may happily bought 3 tops from giodano. intended to go swimming after returning home but clar too lazy le. so ended up slacking at home....

finally i caught up with life today ... =D something that is within my prescence that i can't explain. just can't leave Him the whole day. been thinking bout Him, talking to Him and knowing Him more.. just so happy to know that He has chosen me..i can't stop falling in love with You =)) went for a swim this morning and it was just breathtaking! i swam and swam. forgotten how long was i in the pool le. =x came back and had lunch. now soooo full... hehs, am going to jio ppl out tml to shopping le. saw smth in seventeen and i planned to buy it tml. but must go see if its really nice and suitable for me too mahx =p hmmm, think whole day will be home resting bahhx... see yaa...

" Should we accept only good things from the hand of God and never anything bad?"
Job 2:10b
- do not talk like a foolish woman. Praise God for challenges as it will only lift u up and never meant to be a stumbling block.

2007-06-13T02:20:00.000+08:00

oOo...prayer meeting has once again built a stronger wall for me in ur presence. remembrance of the reliance on not my own strength but Yours alone..i'm made paralysed with You by my side. =D read the starting of Books of Esther . hmmm, everything has a reason for the season. and it is not till the time it is appointed to, it will not happen. fasting to sanctify myself before God..be prepared..one soul at a time !

was at the zoo this afternoon with peeps =D suppose to meet them 1300 at JE but i was onli out of bed at 1215 ! sure late one lohhx. had a small bowl of cambelle soup and machicken burger for lunch..had memorable experience at the baboon sector where all of us watched 'porn' !!! we saw the process of intercourse with our naked eye! it is just so hot from oven la..we all jus couldn't stop laughing. i noe it is sinful to stare at the apes but it is just so funny.. i really wonder how they commnicate lohhx. shall post the pics some other time.. very sensored ones =p it is still vividly happening in my mind ! very sick hor =p.... hahs, all of us are not pure in mind le... all saw porn before our eyes...no need video liao =D

walked further down, saw goats and sheeps.. imitate thier sounds and so funny!!! one of them went off tune which made us all LOL... the sheep so poor thing, dunno wat we laughing at =p stayed there for quite some time di-siaoing the sheeps and saw guinea pigs !! they so sensitive to touches... when jh and serene's hand gets near, they leap off almost immediately ! spotted a unique insect!!! real special species... we thought that it might hurt the guineas' , so suan used her leg to give a light stroke on its leg and the insect immediately turned vicious! oh...so scary!!! it stretched out its horns!!! SCARY !

went to cck de 'wan chai' to have dinner... ordered pork chop baked rice and i'm not full! the rice is so so little...i'm like starving for hours and the meal is not satisfying. hmmm...we then bought bubble tea and home we go =)) reached home had fish porridge...yummy yummy =D dad's cooking had not deprove..good sign =p now just read finish Qi's blog and got a little flared up.. hmm, how should i put it ?? is this the way he wanna hold on to someone he loves deadly ?? it just doesn't reflect his love and trust... trust=rust?? has the trust turned rusty ?? doesn't qi got the right to be out with whoever she wants ?? to the he who may not noe how much hurt he had accumulated in the heart of another love one...hmmm

love the unlovable..just remembered tt i emptied my wallet the other day to give the old uncle... now am penniless and gotta withdraw money again =( hahs, building a strong prayer wall each day ... speak to Him who never fail to answer =D hope to clinche a deal with mr ng to tutor his daughter this coming july wor...another source of income ! mwahaha .... "am thinking of giving up tutoring jamie- the naughty gal ... tired to teach her le la.." how how ??

my Lord, may the fruits of the spirit be full-grown in my life so that i can be of a living testimony for You. let me be a salt that does not loose flavour, let me be a light that is not hidden...let me be the one that shines! being sanctified in the Lords' prensence, set me apart from the world and the holies. weird and me will not mix =D standing in the gap is wat i yearn for oh Lord. brinigng my gifts under the power and authority of Your hands...i surrender. mould me, use me, change me. prepare me for the time to come. there is never a shortcut to reach the calling You've placed in me. let me be like shamgar who is persistent, audacious, willing. let me be like esther, who is always calm at heart to meet obstacles and be bold in christ. AMEN

2007-06-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY

went for ministry this morning! its morning!LOL

had only 6 kids and so its easy for me to teach.
headed to marina for a short shopping trip and saw a white blouse in topshop.

so so NICE!!! but the smallest size still doesn't fit me.

can only take some pics of it...hmmmm

service was awesome awesome awesome as usual..
falling in love to praise and worship YOU...pressing in to ur presence =D

after svc went to changi with 228 peeps..

some had mac while others had BK..

went to viewing mall T2 and sat down eat...
hx just can't stop burping lohhx...made me.so disgusted to continue my burger.

but anyway...left changi near 11 and laogong came to lakeside and walk me home.

stroll around the neighbourhood and reached home near 1am !
den went to bathed , online awhile.

went to sleep at around 3am ... so tired...

pics time !!!

2007-06-07T23:46:00.000+08:00

WOKE UP SUPER DUPER LATE FOR EXAM!!!
i was onli woken up by serene at 8am..and my test is 8.30!
wat the shit am i doing..
last paper le so thought quite lag...suay lohhx
realised so many mistakes after submitting it to the class rep.
haiis..there goes my AD lohhx...
just managed to brush my teeth and chiong-ed out le.. ran to the main road but sad lohhx..so many cars !
hmmm, think i'm forever kena cheated by cab drivers de lohhx.
it cost me $1o to just reach clementi...can u believe??!!
(just add another 5 bucks can reach town le lohhx.)

had planned to do some things on cab de. like having my breakfast on the car..
read up the last few pages of my notes..put some make-up..hahas..
tt's wat i miss out most of the time when rushing.
took the expressway route and thought tt i will reach school speedily
BUT tt stupid cab driver went out from the wrong exit which ended up driving pass my school and gotta U-turn! damn!
den the cab shifted from outer lane to inner lane den i look at my watch! gosh!!! 0835 !!
still wanna drag time to turn in at the front! damn!!
so told the uncle i want alight le. think he noe i quite piss off la...
he still take his time to turn out to the outer lane! SHIT ! no time no time !!
haiis..can't imagine how unlucky am i to always take a greedy cab driver..
want earn my money onli..and there goes my allowance for the day.
so kelian of me to still needa climb overhead bridge,
run pass canteen 2 before reaching block 72 lohhx.. :[
reached exam hall was like oh shit!! 0845!!
chiong the paper lohhx...
den missed out alot alot of key words and i calculated all accruals and prepaid wrongly! haiis...even the interest earned oso wrong..was damn sad la.
benjamin still added oil by saying my loan oso wrong...shd be drawings!
so so so ... i had more than 5 points gone...can see tt my AD oso gone le lohhx.

went home to bath and take ez-link ... out again =D meeting TINA for shopping! =))
headed to orchard first, den meet BOK at taka de Zara.
soon the three of us ended up having a big walk under the big hot sun to dhobby ghuat.
stopped at LJS to have a munch and continued our ' journey to the west' ...
saw darling(jacqeline), evelyn, yvonne, stephanie, eunice and ryan outside LJS den chat awhile lohhx ...tina den just brought us walking and walking without a direction to tt place.
so if i were to go there again, i probably can't =p i'm just totally road nuts..
and the beancurd was nice!! its cheap too!! =D
sat there for very very very long...
firstly, tina said she was very full...den awhile later, cheryl say she tummy ache...so we waited and waited for each other.

from there, we had another walking journey to suntec. so funny!! i was so lost la....
i couldn't tell which way are we heading...so tina and cheryl slowly analyse at the traffic light!
it was so so hot! so i kept quiet all along to loose temperature. lol..
we misled a lady to cross the road when it was red-man... so so funny!
tina and i can't stop laughing! =D saw suntec building and finally we got air-con !!!
is shuang de lohhx... so was there shopping till this point of time??
ahs..probably window shopping ba.
went into billy bombers to have a drink.
the waitress was quite shock to have our order la...
but too bad, we just want to have a drink =p
crapped there for like near an hour and soon,
hx..clar..joey..jeryee and pris came over to meet us.
continued our jokes and laughing non-stop! LOL...
was challenged to tie a knot on the cherry 'branch' using my toungue.
obviously i look damn unglance to have my mouth twitching and turning...
but still managed to have a knot =D you guys can try it for cgm game=))

went to pastamania for cg dinner gathering...let the pics do the talking =D
update other time ... =p

2007-06-05T12:57:00.000+08:00

HOME HOME HOME..
two more papers and i'm in another time zone lo!!!!
so happy!!! holidays !!!
went for a run with clar, lazy joey n pris went for a stroll..
ran from their place to cck stadium..
it really brought back the memory when i missed a second to enter nationals final..
SAD..
den ran 2 rounds stadium and clar onli did 200m i guess..
she's just so so tired..hahas
went back and eat bread again =p
think all addicted to pandan bread le ba..

soon laogong came down to yewtee to fetch me home.
finally i get to bath... ( noe y i make this statement? )
i didn't bath for more than 24 hours le!!! didn't dare to bold it out =p

met up peeps at JP and had crystal jade for dinner..
whoo~ not very expensive oso la
hahas..had many craps in the 'restaurant'
yewloon had a kid's meal cos his portion is real small..
like meant for dwarfts appetite lohhx..
and talked bout shitty things...
as usual, we can't stop laughing whenever we meet.
we again sponsor the restaurant for free choir svc =D

JC and i ordered chinese tea...abit budget arhh..
but it was real worthwhile lohhx..can REFILL !
both of us so typical la.. =p
the rest majority bought barley drink which tasted awful.
had a bowl of 5 spice ramen...can say its filling and nice?? :))
just didn't regret the meal lohhx. it cost me just $11.30
lucky i came home to ask money from dad..
if not i really gonna spend all my savings in one weekend le.

now back home thinking of exam and i'm studying again..
hahs...open book. so how well will i score?
i noe my MIEC camn't make it le. so hope this time it does save my GPA hor.
tired... time to study... BYE =D

BELIEVE
whoo ~ sounding of trumpet =D
we shall take it and follow...
Rejoice in the Lord always....Rejoice !

2007-06-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

whoo~ woke up late this morning...
thanks to laogong lohhx...
wanted to give in to me by allowing me to slp extra 10 min..
in the end, went into dreamland and i rushed to school like crazy lahh.
when rushing after the train, i almost fall la...
lucky i wearing jeans so i got no scratches on my leg =D

after CIP common test suppose to go ministry de..
but last minute boo-boo, tuition changed to 10 am..
i'm having my test and heavenly shit ! didn't get to meet my childrens =(
went JP with pris to have mac breakfast =]
made a creative design on my chicken..

pris came over to my place and 'took a nap'
oh man, a nap soon ended up into sleeping!!
it was so so hard to wake her up lohhx...
in the end, we're so late for svc..
thanks to pris arhh =p

svc was jamming!! i am floating floating floating!!!
was just so honoured to b in city harvest lahhx..
LOVE EVERYONE !!
LOVE the UNLOVABLE !!
LOVE the WORLD !!

everyone was just into a loving heart..loving mind..loving soul
(give your neighbours a HUG =D )

i love both of you so so muchy =D

down on my knees i pray Lord that u will touch the willing heart.

won't you Lord, take a look at our hands
everything we have, use it for your plan
won't you Lord, take a look at our hearts
mould it, refine it, as you set us apart

we want to run to the alter
and catch the fire
to stand in the gap, between the living and the dead
give us a heart of compassion
for a world without vision
we will make a difference,
bringing hope to our land

we will answer the call...
to build this church without walls
let your glory be shown
bring salvation to the lost

(every little weaken branch YOU will not break,
but YOU will give living water so that it will continue to bear fruits)

am so shag now la..hungry and tired!!
just had a chicken bao from 3 plus till now and its already 1am...
i feel so ke lian lohx...gastric is killing me le!!
haiis...now watching horror movie - slither
dunno i scream how many times liao.
LOL.. er...SO PAIN SO PAIN
kkx, now faster msg jeryee, jon and suan say not going for morn svc le
i sure can't wake up de lohx..
and i'm now in dead shit! i have yet to finish not even week ones lecture.
OMG ! can't study anymore!! haiis, turn in first den see how arhh =D

2007-06-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

DAY 2

went to school today with my eyes so sore..
damn tired la...i want to sleep !!!
kkx, den bout the BComm test..
damn worried that i'll fail ! so shitty la, like i write wrongly le
heck la =p den after the paper met laogong for medical checkup at NUH.
sure i'm tired and so laogong wanted me to leave and go home soon.
too bad, i just want to stay by ur side =p
straight after, we headed home and i SLEPT SOUNDLY =D
i just fell into dreamland for hours lohhx!!!
laogong keep waking me up hours after hours and 3 hours just passed like tt.

i was just too shag to attend svc and i missed the wonderful session! urghh..
pris said got children perform!!! er..and i missed it!!! wat the.. =(
hmm, and i just got to stay home and burn mid-night oil lohhx...
stood infront of the com from 7pm (the time i woke up) till 2 am (when i gg to bed)
stupid CIP... just got so so fed-up while studying..hmmm

to be the salt and light of the world!!

2007-05-31T23:20:00.000+08:00

woke up damn damn early today for EMERGE!! =))

pris's alarm started ringing at 5am... OMG!!!!

i need to sleep !!! hahas...den was woken up by my own alarm at 6...

followed by shae's and den i was the last to wash up =p
hehee...which means i was oso the last to get put of bed!! =D
LOL..intended to reach expo by 7 de... instead we only step out at 7!!!

saw huixian and co at tanah and so we managed to Q together lohhx..

perspiring like tapwater when Q-ing .... SO HOT !!

lucky noone fainted in the crowd lohhx..

and my whole shirt was WET !!! so WET !!!

used at least 2 packets of tissue to dry myself...

Q-ed for dunno how long den finally can get in lohhx...
super super tired and its just so so cold!!!

during svc faster msg jeryee to bring jacket.

( i also msged laogong to bring for me =D ... i so kiasu rite )

hahs...after svc went to foodcourt to have lunch with w368

met 228 in hall 7 shortly after meal..
took pics after pics =D

den went to Q AGAIN !!!

tonight having world brodcast and am just so so excited lohhx..

COUNT DOWN.. COUNT DOWN.. COUNT DOWN !!!
THREE.. TWO.. ONE.. =D

so happy that i went for it man...
the msg was just so practical and i am drowned in the word!!

and jeryee secretly eat in the hall la ! hahs...

whoo~ and thinking of school tml?! oh man!!!
tml having BComm test and i'm in for it lohhx..

i've yet to read thru my notes!! hahs...

leg was hurting so so much!!

i just took off my heels and walked home =D

laogong was just so cute la...wanted to help me hold my shoes..

but instead i passed my ez-link card =p

walked home slowly...real slowly.

home sweet home... on the line with laogong till i start uttering rubbish.

so stupid lohhx...i dun even noe wat i said and so hung up the call soon
slept at 2 plus and was so tired to go school tml!!! urghh

kkx...pics time ! =))

princess of the day !!! =D

Don mess with us!! =p

justt appearing somewhere in hall 7 =D

we are bonded by CHRIST !! =D

('' xi gua tian bu tian ?? ")

2007-05-30T14:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm, was so late to meet my CATS group lohhx..
suppose to meet 11, den drag to 12 and i reached there near 12:45 !!!
LOLx.... think ting yan very unhappy la.
AND i oso very unhappy k?! all never come out with new ideas..
doing last minute job everytime!! urghh!

wanted to print it out in school de but all not done! shit man!
so frustrated la... den was late for CATS class..
rushing the project all the way from 1 to 3 and still not done!
ting yan was like just sitting there stoning lohhx! haix...
still left earlier than the 3 of us,
claiming that her instructor wants her to reach earlier this time.
hey, excuse me!! doesn't your teacher noe tt your lesson only ends at 3??
wonder wat your mind is thinking man.
who are we to do the job for u and u get the points?! urggh!!!
still always act BIG with me, huh..want me do all the job!
slap u man!! think the 3 of us did triple times of wat u did la! haix..

ran round the school to get printer and the file...
i like having cross-country in the school lohhx..
den that fat old hag still snatch the file away from me and slam on the table!!!
wa... today is a day of tolerance for me man..

super late for hip-hop oso..
think felice oso kena from her trainer bahh...
we only left block 72 at 3:45!! can u imagine?? we were almost an hour late!
lucky i was still marked present lohhx..

checked my phone after hip-hop and i had 9 missed calls, 4 unread msg..
so so many la... LOLx...
laogong then called me to acc me on bus till clementi before meeting clar and pris.
headed home after that =D

EMERGE IS TML !!!
FEEL IT, SENSE IT, NO SUBMERGING !!! =D

A fire shall always be on the alter; it shall never go out. (Lev 6:13)

2007-05-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

journey to school today was long long long!!!
walked to station and take 154...
almost puke lohhx...read the CIP text till buay tahan..
den listen to MP3 till OMG !
i needa alight immediately...
lucky 2 more stops NP le, so heng lohhx.

dragged my feet to CIP and urghh...
i simply dun like todays lesson!!
after that rushed thru web page design thingy n i'm still not done!!
speed to lecture and was late by 20 min!!

after lecture was like 6.45pm?? den met puisan to lend her shoe bagg..
accompanied laogong to IMM to get smth for someone =D
the thing quite cute la...den bought myself 3 pairs of earrings =D
coincidentally, saw pris and clar!! OMG... so so surprised.

but soon left IMM and headed home with laogong...
[ different memories are kept within the heart ] =D

2007-05-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY SUNDAY !!!

woke up as early as 10 to wake laogong up from bed....
talked for half an hour and left house ard 11 to downtown and swim =D

head to airport by bus with clar, solid and gas. LMAO
can sense that gwen misses joey so so much la.
joey went to cambodia for 6 days and poor gwen cried on the first day.

hmm, den went to eat popeyee...chin cai la..i dun noe how spell. lolx
its just smth like kfc lohhx...nth special lehh...so abit dissappointed.
the bread was abit weird la...and the mash oso... WEIRD WEIRD...
den went back by train lohhx... reached home ard 6.30..
went down to buy dinner again ard 8plus..

so piggy la! hmmm, really dunno how to slim down le.hahs

2007-05-26T23:55:00.000+08:00

hee yea!!! saturday!!!
woke up damn early.6am!!! early can...
so so tired!!!! i just can't stop complaining tt my eyes can't open la.
suppose to go for vertial marthon ,
but ended up at suntec MAC having our breakfast.
slacked around , den head to MS to shop.
after shopping... went to airport to study before going to church .
reached church at 3plus 4...
first time reach expo super early la.
was damn hyper today!
keep laughing and talking...singing and craping...
learnt some crappy jap phrases from jon...
and my slang-ing sucks! LOLx...
jon kept correcting my language and was super dupper funny =D
we learnt jon's crappy trademark! so so fun!
all the buuzzzze and bakar... just dun noe how to spell. =p

had service.. den went to clar's bro chalet..
was feeling soo unwell before service..
had a little feverish before and after svc...oso dun noe y la.
den went back to pris hse to stay over...
cabbed back and only left with 8 bucks...
can u imagine the exact price is $11 ! i keep 'shitting' on the cab...
dun noe how tell the uncle we got no money..LOL
lucky the uncle was kind enough to just accept the 8 bucks tt we left.
tt's really all that we have for the weekend! oh man...
bathed and chatted with laogong till late night ..
den sleep..

pics pics pics... waiting for jeryee to send me... heheex
shall edit this post again when i receive them =D

>>>pic took with jeryee...my babe =D<<<

>>> lao aunty =p <<<

2007-05-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

last night laogong came over to my place and passed me smth...
hahs, claimed that i sure will like the surprise...
and gosh...i really liked it alot. its now on my handphone! =))
hmmm, ended up both of us sleeping at 3am in the morning!!!

reluctantly forced myself to the bathroom and stepped out of house at 8.15 ...
totally didn't have the mood to study!! can u believe?!
so went to have breakfast and headed to laogong's house and continue sleeping. =D

slept till 2 plus and then woke up with headache!!! urghh!!!
didn't even have the mood to go training...
once again, i skipped touch and went for cgm instead.
was so happy that laogong bought waffle for me!!! =D
my favourite food was brought to my hands the moment i wake up!!!

I LOVE YOU !!!

before going cg, met clar earlier cos she's dead bored at home...
went to IMM ... the disasterous place OMG !!!
someone MOLESTED me .... i was super shocked, and i teared...
shall not talk much bout it...just experienced smth unpleasant...

den met up with jon, jeryee and PRIS!
shit her la...MIA! play prank on us...
after that went cgm..
after cgm, head home straight...

hmm.....dunno what to blog le .... soo byebye ! =p

2007-05-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

hahs...wasn't home on friday and sat... had wonderful nights with someone =))

hmmm, the photo was taken while i'm on the phone with laogong....hees
wat shall i blog now??

kkx...today, i skipped training again!! lost my voice while talking to puisan this afternoon.

sian..when can i recover man?!

oh...and i promised puisan i'm gg training with her this coming thurs =)

today in school as usual lohhx..
forgot to bring lappy for CIP... then tt bastard teacher asked for my name ... shit her la ! learn to do webpage design but i caught nothing so 1 day wasted... lolx

met up with my chior team to school and play floorball instead of going training AGAIN!!!!!!

sweat like hell and smelling like shit after the game...

split into two cars and headed to IMM for dinner with the teachers...

joked and laughed till 9 before everyone left...

yea!!! back in huayi's toilet tt's always without toilet paper! =p

pui and me after playing floorball with peeps =D

so so tiring! my shirt is wet with sweat!!

oOo...we are back as one =D

our laughters really makes up a choir team ! =]

pic taken on sunday at expo toilet cus went to see POS preview...
NP de is damn nice la... YAY ! joining next year for sure. =D

Promised someone to sleep at 12 tonight... soo ... sleep liao lohhx. byebye ! =]

( pic abit censored )
LOLx... =p

2007-05-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!
so so happy now lohx..
hmmm, today after school went to library do project.
saw LYON outside the lib!!!i didn't noe tt he's in ngee ann! oh dear!!!
hahhs...think i am living in my era nowadays..dun noe whats happening around me...urgh

rushing all the way from school to cgm! i'm forever rushing.. =p
i was real late to meet jeryee, jon and pris. LOLx...
cgm today was more of a fellowship outreach thingy so we just had games and dinner.
the food prepared by peeps is superb man !!! its nice !!! its delicious !!! its filling !!! yea =D
think i had ALOT of junk food today man! how terrible!!
i missed training and instead gobbling food into my mouth... hahs.. i'm a big eater!!

kkx, some pics of the day =D

hahs!!! jeryee and me passing hot-dogs!!

pris is so 'hiong' to eat up the hot-dog!!! LOLx

Do we look stupid in this pic??

hahs..i just want the ballons in the pic can?? =p

2007-05-16T00:47:00.000+08:00

oOo...pris came over my place again this afternoon to pei me see doc. hahs...this is a girls' life like without a boyfriend i guess ...mixing with girlfriends instead lohx=p

left home around 2 plus and went to polyclinic. had checkup and i requested for a female one! hees =} the doc damn cute!!! she said if fever for more than 10 times got to go bark again !!! eh eh....i never type wrong spelling..she really pronounce back=bark !!! i keep laughing in the room la.LOLx.. and then who on earth will let him or herself have fever for more than 10 times?! hahs... i received 5 packets full of medcine in total !! den pris say in chinese..." only people who are dying will eat so many medicine." hack man...LOLx

left house again at 6 plus to JP and be AUNTY...hahs! i dragged pris along with me to ntuc and bought groceries! spent a total of $80 plus this week at ntuc le.lolx... pls ask me now...am i still sick? hahs!! i'm energised by the power of God peeps! =D oOo...before u guys suspect what can i buy there ya?? ... i didn't buy the wants but the needs k. i even bought detergent and floor cleanser horx.. never see me in such AUNTY state ya. mwahaha....

oh! smth stupid i did today...i queued behind the wrong line while waiting for bus home! damn paiseh can. i even ask the uncle infront of me which bus he's taking la! den he tell me 240! my face turn red lohx! i quickly take the bags and walk briskly to the 198 queue. even pris oso too paiseh to say anything..LOLx...the uncle 'yi zhi zai um chio lahhx'..=p and then 198 come le..i didn't see but heard..so i just casually say "shi meh" .. the muo shen ren reply to her fren ... " wo you si zhi yan jing lehh .... kan de bi ni duo horx "... den at that time i oso wearing specs! but i never take notice of the bus lohx... so paiseh again. lolx...

reached home and have dinner...while pris have her mac... after that received a call from laogong... called her back using house phone and we chatted for more than an hour i guess...LOLx... tml laogong not going sch cos sick... den me lehh..oso don feel like going de! but hack la...got another ambassador interview...so bo bian lohx... haiis. kkx, got to turn in before it gets even later.

missses 5n1 so so so much... urgh!!!

my refuge, my shelter, my healer and rest...
almighty, redeemer, salvation and strength...
please re-direct my path =)
remembering those things i've told u...
my heart is steadfast trusting in you.

I LOVE YOU !!!

2007-05-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

today wasn't feeling well from head to toe man ! i'm dead sick ! forced myself to school cos of all the tutorials ! endured all the way till 3plus when having statistics lesson...almost threw out. SAD! den went for a walk to the toilet. having fever at that time le...
went home straight after school...suppose to take 157 de but i gong gong walk out from front gate den take 154 den 99 lohx..reached home and sleep le. pris say wanna come down find me... so she reached my place around 7 and gave me other 3 big present!!! janice, sharlene and sally came too! was shocked to see them...its been real long that we last met man! den i was like caught unprepared...so my room was in a mess..sorry gals... =D now finishing the liang teh bought by pris...its just not nice la..but its the thoughts that i appreciate la =)
i'm just coughing my lungs out soon le...XIN KU...

confession:
glorious God...come heal me! by your stripes on the cross, i'll be healed in your name!

oOo...dinner for today was just a bowl of vegetables and durian!! LOLx... durian is so sinful rite...cos my mouth itchy la.can't blame..the smell is tempting! so mum ask " like that u will full meh??" i replied..."balance ma...starch plus protein" =D

2007-05-13T12:02:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY!!!!! yesterday was just so fun to be out with the crazy peeps...just not a second i won't hear craps and laughter lohx....SO FUN SO FUN SO FUN!!!

kkx....talk bout my whole schedule for the day first. woke up real late in the morning. wanted to be in church 11am but i only woke up at that time. what is it tt's funny?? LOLx... den hurriedly prepared everything and proud to say, i left the house within 20 min =) started class on time and i thought them to make Mother's Day card. one of the boys' drew himself crying for his mum. tt's cute ya...hahs =D

##my dear teck woon kissed me!!! LOLx..still got sound one lohx!! ##

after that went to JP and withdraw $400 bucks!!! when i check my a/c...sad to say, it fell behind the boundary of 5000... sad =( gt to work hard and save money again le.. hmmm, meet up clar and had a solo lunch at mac. reached church den was late for service..

let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. (philipians 2:3)

took some crazy pics at tanah as jon, pris, jeryee and i gg seperate ways after svc. den den den...finally went to meet peeps at 8 plus ba...they were at suntec de JUST NOODLES having dinner. suddenly lost my voice when i see them..oso dun noe why..so didn't talk much but keep coughing and laughing lohx. suan-ed jiahui till so kelian...joking tt she got to wash the dishes b'cos she gt not enough cash.. den everyone preparing handphone to video. lame la... after that, our next stop is newurbanmale shop...we took video of kam "advertising" the male 'g-string'... our laughter was giggles to silence to blasting.. we took lots of photo on train!!! guess the ppl on train would be damn pissed off if they wanted some nap.. our laughter was just simply too 'entertaining' . we literally transformed the atmosphere in the train. so we had laughters all the way from city hall to JE when suan alighted and forgotten her HP...so funny!! i den alighted at lakeside and walked home. wasn't feeling well while walking so i had a 15min walk back home. so long.

kkx...some pics of the day!!! =D

##warriors at singapore expo##

## see how poor jonathan's photo-taking skills are...tsk tsk tsk!##

##crazy me on train##

## jing looks just so pretty!!! ##

## col and me !! my mouth got sweet.LOLx ##

2007-05-10T19:01:00.000+08:00

hey hey...i'm back at blogging my dears.. so many ppl has been asking why i stop blogging le.hahs.kkx, kind of busy at school as there's so many things that i need to adapt with! urgh!! but still coping well i guess.hahs. missed the gals soooo much. want to go out with those crazy peeps again...i miss the jokes and laughter!!! ah...5N1 will sure be tgt foreva de ya =) yea..all going to get the same friendship ring wor...wonder how many of us will buy??

hmmm, kinda packed with my timetable as i have touch trainings on every tues and thurs, den wed got hip-hop and still got to commit myself to tuitor a P4 gal... ~TIRED

btw...this is one of the most adorable kids i have in class..hahs. pris took this photo while bringing him to the toilet =p

oh... monday, went to sch as usual...and headed to jamie house straight away to give intensive tuition as she's having maths exam the next day. was pissed off by her attitude to study as she is always eating!!! even when i am teaching!!! now i know why teachers don allow us to eat in class le.hahs. and also..she likes to touch me..quite disturbed by her actions! urgh!! thinking of it just makes my blood boil.

tuesday, swam with elda and ginni in school till like 1130 den had lunch and went for our first lesson of the day at 1pm... whooho.... went for touch training at 5.30 and as usual...i'm late.hahs. training was tough i guess...cos we played tagged and my team was literally running up and down the field! it really requires stamina as u got to gain ground by running up and down..guess wat, i helped my team to score a tri!! yea yea =) reached home was near 1000 and i'm half dead! too tired to touch sch work but it seems like those projects i had to handle is haunting me. (stressed)

wednesday, went for the gym orientation in sch and met up with girlfriends. elda was quite late so we end up rushing to the gym. its so so cool!!! there are 10 track mills and each has television cables on! which means while runing, u can watch TV at the same time! cool... (don envy arhh.LOLx) there is also a corner for circuit training!! think i'm soon gonna make gym my second home. =p den 1pm lesson lesson lesson...i just simply hate the CIP tutor...she sucks man! i never once know wat is she trying to teach..think she just come and earn mony lohx...not having the mind and heart to teach...y be a tutor?! scram la...u just want to earn easy money rite..haiz (just hoping that i won't fail her module) hmmm, den went for hip-hop after lesson and i'm like sooooo tired!! the instructor was asking " you all shack le arhh?" LOLx...b'cos everyone was like lossing counts of the beat. everyone was tired i guess...no one had the energy to count le...so the counting was fading with our steps.hahs. after this, went to jamie house again! sian!!! this time i used her mum's name to threaten her to pay attention. i even threatened her to ask her mum not to hire me as tutor b'cos she's not willing to be tutored! i just don't like her la. haiz....but wat to do, i want to help her score well lehx. ENDURE! anyway...the pay oso not bad lehs...$15 an hour..hahs. reached home with slight fever...dunno wat's the cause of it. haiz..felt cold everywhere i went. body was feeling darn weak! so my action was turtle-ly. slept peacefully throughout and woke up perspiring! thanks to someone arhh...ask me to sleep without fan.hahs. but anyway..thanks la horx...my fever subsided =) butwhole body still aching...no energy to talk this morning.was a little unusual so everyone looked at me and asked why??? hahs...

2007-04-30T17:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm...someone commented tt my blog going to turn rusty le. so its time for me to blog lohx. its been two weeks in school and i'm still doing fine bahhx.... =D took up 3 CCA!!! hahs. i've got christian crusade for christ; ambassdor and touch rugby! think i'm giving up one of them ba... saw ppl from track and field running den i told serene i wanna join back track. den dear sae...join others to learn other things la. other cca can also run ma.and so i went to touch rugby.. and i'm so proud of one thing!!! for my sports and wellness programme, i got myself involved in hip hop!!! cool...i'm so happy can. hahs..dear den say i will chicken leg, duck feet not? ...shit la! lolx.excuse me...i even noe a few simple steps of street dance and ballroom dance k. hahs... but i learnt them like 10 years back.... =p

kkx..get serious with studies now. not coping well with them. perhaps is b'cos i'm a total stranger to them ba. i hate the module CIP (computer thingy)...i'm going nuts le!!! NP is like after every lecture, you've got to prepare tutorial questions...so homework is never ending!! i'm tired!!

oOo...and my ministry, i'm growing my group of kids man... God is working in me... from start of 10 kids for my first lesson, i multiplied it to 20 just last week! praise the lord! erm, was really pissed of early in the morning tt day at the very instant tt i realise i won't be having any helpers with me for class. but by the grace of god, i still had a enjoyable time with the kids as we sang london bridge and one of the boy enjoys being caught in the fallen bridge.lolx

school today was heavy as from 9 to 4, i'm having all the tutorials. obviously the studious me showed up and study. i was given a nickname by aisha: polar bear... because my goose bumps were popping up and i'm acting strong tt i'm not cold! lolx.